Heart-Broken

i think no other words can describe my feelings better than this bolded word... when you love your friends so much, when whatever you do you never forget them... when you are the one who asked them out 1st...

they can say that they've forgotten me... they can say that i've never crossed their minds... but why do they quote something which is not true? 

"you said you want to study during the weekends, you asked us not to disturb your weekends"

when in fact, what i said was "do not disturb my sunday because i have paper on monday"

that makes me very very heartbroken. stop quoting something which is NOT true, something i've NEVER said before!!! if i said that before, i wouldn't had said i want to go out TONIGHT!!! and you yourself said "you wana go out? i also want to go out. but if you want me to go out, get me from medic faculty"

and in fact, i was the one who asked the other person who go out 1st. he rejected, saying he has no money. and suddenly he was going out. and i am not in the list... (i am NOT blaming him, cos he does not know that i am not following. in fact, he was the one who asked me to get ready to go out)

after EVERYTHING, what the 1st person did was "i ask them whether got empty place anot"

when everytime i go out with ppl he knows, he'll be the 1st in the list i asked. when everytime i go out he crossed my mind. but me? just someone to fill in empty spaces, that is also if AVAILABLE

and then when i was heartbroken, only did they asked the 3rd person to call and ask whether i want to go anot. in fact, there are already 5 ppl in their list. they're just asking to SHOW they SUDDENLY rmb abt me? just as manners? and what if i am going? are they going to kick one person out or are they going to squeeze 6 ppl in 1 kancil?

i've been hurt once... and i do not wish to be so stupid to be hurt twice...

i really thought i've found my best friends... i really thought i could share my things with you all... and i really thought you all are the ones who can make me happy and not cry again...