biasanya memang susah nak orang lain menghargai apa yang telah kita lakukan...

just saw loads of comment on a photo my fren tagged me in.. telling how bad are the Liaison Officers during Minggu Aluan Pelajar... how bad we organised things... how we did not respect them etc...

but who noticed when the juniors do not respect us? when their parents blamed us for not knowing where each blocks are? they do not know the hidden facts that some of us are from different college than the one we're on duty at. who noticed when the juniors do not listen to us? (thank god i havent encounter things like this at Cempaka College... all the juniors are quite ok)

thats human... often complain about thingst hey do not know and things that they have no experience at. they often thought that those things are as simple as what they seems to be. just like before i became an LO, i have no idea that we need to attend a week of training, need to know informations about this and that, which department to go when we encounter different prob etc...

it's not easy asking us to smile the whole day no matter what happen, rain or shine, hor or cold, happy or sad, scolded or praised... nevertheless, it trains us to be more patient... to be human with higher EQ i supposed? hehe

what's more important is we, the LOs, learnt many things from these... 

human do not magnify good things and say thank you... in fact, they normally exagerate small things and complain...
 

i thought i am strong enough emotionally... 

but i lose... when i am alone in room... when no one is around me... i lose to my own feelings...

i cried after posting this on facebook...

people say "i had many more things to say... i wish i had more time"
but mei kin says "some things are sweeter if left unsaid" >.^

i began missing you already, my fren...
 

siapalah yang sudi mendengar luahan hati dan perasaan saya... 

hari tu (rabu), lepas exam epp, saya dimaklumkan yang seorg kawan baik saya akan bertukar kursus;... kawan baik yang selama ini menemani saya ketika saya sedih... kawan baik yang sangat saya hargai... 

tapi, siapa lah saya padanya... hinggakan bertukar kursus pun tidak beritahu saya...

membuatkan saya terfikir... siapakah saya... sekadar coursemate? yang menemaninya ketika kawan-kawannya yang lain sibuk dengan urusan masing-masing? dan apabila sekarang dia sudah bertukar kursus, apakah pula status saya? tidak boleh dikatakan coursemate lagi.. jadi? strangers kah kita kelak?

siapalah saya ni... sekadar insan yang pass by hidupmu... tanpa meninggalkan kesan tapak kaki...

semoga kamu akan berjaya menjumpai coursemate yang mampu dijadikan kawan baik... curahkanlah segala apa yang ada dalam hatimu agar tidak terseksa... 
    

MAP finally ended... miss the 2 weeks (including induksi) i spent together with other LOs having fun and eating free... learnt alot in these 2 weeks and intend to join again next year! =)

knew many new frens too!!! jerry, d' fester, willie... love them all!!!

juniors are lovely as well! memories of practicing cheers together.. and during sukaneka... i'll keep those in my heart forever...

not forgotten those bitter ones... such as KK fainted incident... =( 

initially i was so reluctant to move to cempaka even for one week... however as time passes... i began to fell in love with cempaka and its juniors... i love everything about cempaka... the people, the staff, the surroundings, the rooms, the pathways... 

though i began to love cempaka, brc is still my home... i still have to go back to brc and live there... there's where my heart is supposed to be... like bella... though she began to love jacob, she has to know that her love is edward, not jacob... (twilight fever)

I LOVE YOU, CEMPAKA!!!! AUUUMMM~~~~

and when i went back to brc, i have a sudden feel of i doesnt belong to brc anymore... i dunno any of the juniors, the LOs... everything seems so weird and strange to me... i don't know what others are talking about anymore... things can reli change in one week's time, don't they? =)