Buat Nori Tersayang (before i go back to KL)

cakap pasal hujan, saya teringatkan perbualan saya, farid & najwa tempoh hari ketika mesyuarat JPK...

farid : apa kata panggil hujan sebagai artis jemputan untuk Open Day BRC nanti?

saya : hujan? xyah panggil lah... dia ada kat luar... (luar sedang hujan ketika itu)

farid : hahahaha. awak panggil hujan, saya nak panggil matahari lah...

najwa : saya nak mendung!!!

farid : nanthini amik gerimis!!!

that's us during jpkbr meeting... slalu je gurau2, buat lawak n tak tumpu perhatian... sebab tu slalu kena tegur... sampai muka merah... hihihihi

tapi hari ni saya bukan nak cakap pasal benda nie...

tadi terbaca post nori... nori crita pasal list dia... tiba2 rasa macam serupa plak...

Family --> Friends --> Partner (the other half)

saya nak criter sikit pasal saya and si nori ni... sblm tu, jom lihat profile dia!! =P

Nama : Norizawati Mohd Nor (suka letak binti dia... sgt sayang daddy lah tu..)

Tarikh lahir : 23 April 1990 (3 hari sebelum saya... maksudnya dia 3 hari lebih tua daripada saya!!!)

Asal : Miri, Sarawak (salah satu pilihan saya...)

merekalah yang menemani saya dan tidur bersama saya untuk 9 hari... love them & miss them!!!

mei kin and nori

 

 

saya kenal nori sejak sem 1 tahun 1 lagi... masa tu sama2 Kelab Penyayang... tapi masa tu memang x rapat... rapat sejak trip brc ke sabah... kita duduk berdua dalam bas... perjalanan kuching -> sri aman -> sibu -> miri -> limbang -> lawas -> Kota Kinabalu memperlihatkan pelbagai ragam & merapatkan lagi persahabatan sy n si nori ni...

tambah rapat apbl kita sama2 menjadi LO intake dec... rasanya tu lah yg buat kita jadi best fren tiba2... 

time menjadi LO MAP December Intake

sama bilik, sama LO Transcom, sama LO Kolej Cempaka, sama jadi si 'usher' aka pembuka pintu VIP time majlis... kita menjadi semakin rapat n rapat...

rapat hinggakan ramai yang mengatakan saya n si nori bagaikan kembar... di mana ada nori, di situ ada mei kin & di mana ada mei kin, di situlah nori terpacak juga...

tapi seperti biasa, keakraban & keintiman sering mengundang rasa cemburu... ada lah kata2 sesetengah pihak tu yang menyindir si nori sehingga si nori sedih dan tak lalu makan... ada plak orang yg busy body menokok tambah cerita dongeng yang sememangnya dah donggeng... dengan mengatakan si nori ni protes sebab saya tak dapat join trip bbq di Semantan (sebab saya dah balik semenanjung for chinese new year) menjadikan perselisihan faham mengembang & membesar walaupun benda tu remeh sebenarnya...

saya rasa bersalah plak sebab menjadi penyebab si nori ni sedih....

ada lah something yang happen hari ni yang buat saya terasa dgn tindakan si nori ni... mungkin tindakan tu tidak disengajakan, tapi saya rasa cukup terasa... sampaikan mood terjejas habis2san... sampaikan macam titisan air mata ini tidak dapat ditahan lagi...

tapi mcm mana pun, hal tu dah berlalu... bukannya saya x pernah melalui situasi yang sama... so what i have to do now is just ignore those things and get on with my life... if i keep on getting sad over what happen (which had happened in the past, happening now and will happen in the future), i guess i'll have to be sad & down my whole life...

NO WAY!!!!

so, kepada si nori yang tersayang ni, jangan lah kmu nak menyalahkan diri or bersedih lagi... saya dah ok... lain kali x nak lah kisah lagi pasal benda2 camtu... malas ku... hehheheh. lalalalala~~

kadang kala ada sesuatu tu yang not meant to be shared with other people, just between you and me... =)

goood night, and happy holidays!!! gonna miss you lots!!! ^^

         

Outing!!!

23 January 2011, the day when the whole West Campus of UNIMAS no electricity... 

Less talking, more pictures... ENJOY!!!

Farid

Sany

Aja

Mei Kin

Najwa

Minority?

"What is a 1Malaysia Programme if there is NO Chinese representative(s) in the committee?"

Answer : *speechless*

 

Statement

"Posts in blogs become more fake when you know who will be reading them"

- Lai, M.K (2011) -

just a statement that pops out in my mind all of a sudden while reading other people's blogs... feelings... sometimes the feelings grow so intense that i heard my inner evil voice saying "so fake... a look at this post can already tell me that he/she wants to convey a message to another person, who, obviously, will be reading that post"

the thing is, what is the problem of telling him/her yourself what you are thinking? it is better than posting in blog, hoping that the person will read it and know that you are talking about him/her. another question : what if that person don't know you are talking about him/her? all your efforts will be in vain, you will be labeled as someone who wasted a space in cyber world and wasted your friends' time looking at that post

AH! feelings! 

* the person who posts fakely is actually the writer herself

** the person who posts something and hope him/her will be reading that post is ALSO the writer herself

*** the writer wants to stop posting things to please others, she wishes to post things that comes directly from her heart

HAVE A NICE DAY! =)

   

Siapa VS Saya

memang nak cakap macam ni... "siapalah saya untuk orang berkorban demi saya... wajarkah? patutkah? berbaloi kah?" tapi saya rasa ada benda yang lebih baik dan mampu menandingi pemikiran negatif dalam diri saya ni... "saya adalah saya... dan kawan-kawan saya sanggup berkorban demi saya sebab diorang semua sayang saya"

tersebutlah al-kisah satu kes yang sangat sensitif... sebab tu kata rasa macam nak privatise blog ini... sebab followers dan para pembaca yang akan menjenguk blog ini buat saya rasa tak selamat untuk meluahkan isi hati saya walaupun itulah tujuan sebenar saya memulakan blog. penat lah nak fikir ayat yang baik dan tidak menyinggung perasaan orang serta berhati-hati untuk tidak menyebut pasal seseorang yang saya tau akan baca blog saya.

tapi itu lah... pasal kes hak saya sebagai seorang manusia (bukan main serius isu ni saya hiperbola-kan sedangkan benda ni remeh je... hehe) kadang-kala seriously terasa terpinggir... tapi apakan daya... takkan nak menangis merayu kan? back to the question : siapa lah saya... kalau saya rayu orang akan akur ke? tak akan juga kan? so apalah gunanya merengek macam budak kecil... kan kan kan? =P

tapi saya rasa sangat bahagia ada kawan-kawan yang menyatakan pendapat masing-masing untuk membantu saya. walaupun keputusan akhir tidak memihak kepada saya, namun hati dan niat tu yang paling penting.

*formal sangat nak berbahasa melayu hari ni... sebab saja nak testing balik BM saya... sorry dah merosot penggunaan bahasa saya... hehe. so, tukar balik BI*

seriously, most of the time it is the heart that matters most. when you see the effort your friends put in, eventhough there is no positive outcome, at least you know they've tried their best for you. and you treasure that more than anything else in the world. you will love them more and more!!! 

thanks to those who backed me up... really touched!!! 

enjoy the trip!!! though i will not be there... =)
    

Membisu Seribu Bahasa

yup, you are right... took the title of this post from one of Faizal Tahir's songs : Hanyut

it feels terribly pain when i started this blog with the intention of saving papers writing diaries (yes, mei kin wrote diaries. since Standard 3... Since 9 years old), but end up i can't express my feelings in this blog when i need to do it so badly


i heard someone asking WHY?

simply because when i am typing my post (even at this moment when i am typing this sentence), i take into consideration my readers. i think of who will read about this, what they will do, and how they will think/react.

feeling that i am so hypocrite that i need to lie even to my blog... i need to say that i am well, happy and all-positive-feelings when in reality, it is the other way round.

there are things that i wish i could express out at this moment, yet i am forced to keep them in my heart because i don't want certain people to know about it...

and all these come back to the reason why i wish to keep this blog away from public eyes...

yet i got cheap publicities here and there, promoting my blog at places i don't even know, and all of a sudden, i've got a new follower...

now, where should i express my feelings?
      

 

When Jokes Hurts... Badly...

Last semester, my friend showed me a cruel video, one which makes me feel terribly bad after watching it...

the video is about someone who wanted to scare his friend (a girl). he hides behind somewhere with a mask and when his friend came back from grocery shopping, the guy jumped out from his 'hiding' place, wanting to scare this girl. what happened was the girl was sooooo alarmed/surprised/scared/whichever-word-suitable, she shouted (normal) and ran out of the house. the next thing happening was a car speeding past and knocked the girl. she died.

a joke that did not turned out to be a joke i guess?

just last week my friend was happily telling us stories about her and a guy : how they 1st started to know each other, the sms(es) they exchanged, the FB statuses the guy posted and what his friends commented, the outings and movies they watched together and promises they made to each other...

when the guy did not reply her sms, she was so down/sad/unhappy... She even went to the extend of dieting and not eating when that guy asked her to slim down (by saying that she is a good wife... the tradition in his family is the groom needs to carry the bride during their wedding)

unfortunately... a 'relationship' and feelings that started just ONE WEEK after knowing each other will not last long... logically, how well do you know someone in just 1 week?

after a few days of them being 'together', my friend told me that she was very sad... further investigations show that they guy had actually said that he was just JOKING all these while... all that he said to my friend, including the sweet talks and promises... all were mere JOKES...

*CRACK*

literally can hear my friend's heart cracking...

Jokes... how far can they go? till the extend of killing someone? and breaking a fragile heart... 

         

Reminder

when you are sad + mood-less + stress + tired + many things in your mind to think about, the last thing you hope will come to you is a reminder of your past.

i took a week or so to forget about my results. to get over the fact that i did badly (compare to previous semesters) but i did not really put the blame completely on myself. seriously... how could you expect students to score in exam when

1. there are 9 chapters, the lecturer taught just 6 chapters and ask you to read the rest of the chapters yourself, saying that they are easy

2. you don't understand how the lecturer come out with that answer in his slide, so you went and ask him about it. and he told you that he also don't know how to get the answer

3. worse of all, the questions that the lecturer did not managed to answer, come out in your final exam. not 1 question, not 2... but more than half of the paper

4. i got a B despite getting the highest score during mid term exam

i might sounds bad putting all the blames on the lecturer, but i am really unhappy with the results i got. another subject that makes my score drops, ORGANIC CHEMISTRY. a subject i dislike, and with my poor memory, i cannot MEMORIZE things, i have to UNDERSTAND things. can you make sense out of organic chemistry? for me, i can't. maybe due to my slow and not-creative brain.

these 2 subjects really dragged my pointer down down down.... you thought i am happy with that? with my achievements (that i think is not 100% my fault) ? must i show people around me how sad/unhappy/down am i? showing people how weak you are doesnt solve the problem, it only makes ppl around you worry! especially when there are some understanding friends who tried to console you!

and when a close friend asked you about your results, you told him honestly, at last what he did? use it in fb as publicity? what else can i say? *heartbroken*

boleh je dia tulis dan komen pasal keputusan peperiksaan saya yang teruk pada sem lepas. apa yang saya buat hanyalah memberi sokongan kepadanya untuk terus berusaha bagi menaikkan pointer dia!!! dan membaiki hidup dia!!! itu pun salah ke? itu pun nak kena sindir balik??? dan beritahu kepada seluruh dunia mei kin lepas join jpk results dia menurun merosot teruk etc etc

AT LEAST I DID NOT FAIL ANY OF MY SUBJECTS AND I KEEP MY POINTER ABOVE 3.00!!!!

perasaan sekarang : sakit hati. rasa mcm dikhianati kwn baik sendiri. bagitau results tapi dia gunakannya untuk attack kamu balik. pada waktu di mana kamu sedang mencari kegembiraan dan ketenangan, dia ungkit kembali kisah silam kamu. buka kembali buku sejarah lama yang dah lama kamu tutup. soalannya : perlu ke???

tolonglah berikan kekuatan kepada saya untuk tidak terus marah pada kawan saya ni.. beri lah saya kekuatan untuk memaafkan kata-kata serta perbuatannya selama ni.. *rasa macam nak nangis....*

patut kah saya marah atau menangis?

saya perlukan ketenangan dan kekuatan....

p/s : jangan risau... post ini ditulis ketika emosi saya tidak stabil... lepas stabil nanti ok lah saya... diri saya akan ok, dan kawan saya pun akan ok...
          

Rojak Campur Post

Many things that i want to post but cos all are short short storied with very little descriptions, i call this post ROJAK post... (mei kin so sayang Malaysia.. should give her an award for promoting Malaysian food in her blog post)

lately sejak mula sem dan kenal kwn2 baru (berkat hasil drpd tukar tiket penerbangan sebanyak RM180 semata-mata utk pergi ke sabah) boleh dikatakan tiap2 hari jalan keliling UNIMAS. boleh dikatakan sgt sihat lah. (tu sbb sem blom mula betul2, classes banyak yg blom start, assignments meetings tasks activities smua xde... tulah yg free sgt utk lepak2)

smlm pergi Fun Fair di luar UNIMAS.. kat Desa Ilmu... blh dikatakan impian sy selama ini tercapai jua... impian utk main permainan kat fun fair! akhirnya dpt jgk sy menjejak kaki ke dalam kapal lanun (last time pergi Sunway Lagoon nk main kapal lanun yang pusing 360 degrees tp kawan sy masa tu melarang, saying that it is very dangerous) turun je dari kapal lanun... rasa diri saya tua sgt dh... pinggang saya punyalah SAKIT!!! mungkin sbb x sempat nk tarik nafas dh kena jerit kot...

pastu cubalah plak burger KGB yang org smua cuba promote kat saya (dan yg sy promote kat org lain sednagkan masa tu sy blom try lagi... so bila promote & kwn tanya "sedap ke?" saya cuma leh ckp "ntah... x cuba lagi") punyalah sedap burger dia.. mengalahkan McD! hahaha. sbb sehari sblm MAP dec mula, kwn sy belanja daging prosperity burger McD. sy mmg klau makan burger x mkn daging punya burger, sbb rasa mcm daging dia lembut sgt. mcm berair/berlendir... eeeeee.... tp dh rasa kgb hari tu, daging dia tu sedap!!! dpt dikunyah!!! sukeeee!!! (luckily chicken habis hari tu, klau x, x sempat sy nk merasa daging burger yg sedap)

the day yg we all pergi fun fair, sy n nori cuba KGB ayam pulak... daging dia tu mmg tebal (spt yg diiklankan oleh encik salihin saat) wpun lbh sedap drpd McD chicken (mana2 chicken burger McD), tp masih x dpt menandingi KGB daging burger. means burger daging KGB > burger ayam KGB (siap bagi penilaian lagi.. heheh)

hari tu pergi hospital visit budak BRC yang appendix plak, nampak scene yg sgt menyayat hati & menyentuh perasaan... seorg datuk sdg sakit tenat.. ahli keluarga dia berdiri sebelah dia, lengkap berpakaian baju melayu (tanpa samping lah) cucu dia yg sorang lelaki ni plak baca yassin (rasanya yassin.. sbb pernah baca dr novel melayu yg ahli keluarga akn baca yassin utk yg tenat) rasa sedih lah plak.. ditambah ngan bunyi mesin pulse di sblh... aduishhh =(

hari yg sama jgk sy rasa diri sy ni dilanda kesedihan dan kekecewaan yang teramat sgt... smua ni akibat sms drpd seorg abg sy ni.. kiranya senior saya lah, tp sy panggil dia abg... kata-kata dia pada hari tu dirasakan begitu tajam dan menusuk trus ke hati.. sy terkejut dia blh ckp dgn nada mcm tu kat sy.. dia mcm x kesian ke kat sy? sbb dia mmg tau yg sy x mungkin dpt buat apa yg dia minta... tp dia mendesak. desakan dia buat sy sesak nafas, x blh fikir scr rasional.. akhirnya, titisan air peluh pun gugur... (peluh... bukan air mata.. sengaja.. hehe) kesedihan melampau... diakhiri dengan perasaan bersalah yg teramat sgt sebab buat abg sy ni marah... hu3... sorrry... =(

hari ni plak tgk AJL ngan kwn2... sedih kot Faizal Tahir tak menang... (sy pun tak tau kenapa sy suka faizal tahir.. mostly sbb pengaruh kawan lah... sbb rafik yg slalu nyanyi lagu faizal tahir & post dlm fb.. sbb aja yg letak lagu faizal tahir dlm blog dia.. buat sy pun ikut suka,.. hehe) anyway, best lah plak tgk ramai2...

pasal benda yg sedih plak... hari tu jumpa sorang adik junior sy menangis tepi tangga masa sy baru balik dari fun fair... sbb basah kuyup akibat hujan, so x dpt nk peluk dia.. sbnrnya hati sy tergerak nk peluk dia trus.. kesian tgk dia nangis & sedih.. tu lah.. sbb sy tgk dia ngan bf dia tu dari tak kenal jadi kenal.. sampai tahap sms hinggalah bersama akhirnya.. so tiba2 percintaan mrk dilanda masalah, sy ikut ssh hati.. sbb dua2 adik sy, sy tgk mcm mana cinta mrk berputik.. so rasa mcm sy plak yg sdg mengalami gelora perasaan.. =(

hari ni jln2 keliling unimas plak, jumpa ngan adik yg sorang lagi.. critalah pasal kisah cinta dia lagi,.. kesedihan.. sbb baru break up ngan gf dia... haihzzzzz.... =(

smlm plak jumpa sorang senior sy ni.. dia jawab phone call.. sampai tension2 muka dia... mimik muka ubah... dia sengaja pandang lantai spy kami x nampak mimik muka dia... pastu dari suara dia ckp dgr mcm sgt tension... siap kerut dahi lagi... for a second or two, i suspected he cried,.. how true is my assumption, only he can answer that... hmmm

if can, i reli wish everyone around me can be happy. seeing them sad makes me heart broken cos i feel as if i can do NOTHING to make them feel better...

*sorry today's post is VERY disorganized... sama seperti perasaan dalam hati saya yang bercampur baur.. macam tu jgk ia mempengaruhi blog saya... sorry entry ni tak terurus & mungkin kmu smua x dpt nk faham apa yg sdg sy crita... nvm, cos i just want to blurt out what i feel.. it's even better if no one undertsnads... =)

GOOD NIGHT... ^^
            

Anugerah Juara Lagu (AJL) 25

mungkin sebab biasanya musim AJL saya akan berada di rumah, so AJL kali ni saya macam terlupa lah plak... (kat rumah ada newspaper, ada tv, ada iklan... so mcm reminder automatic yang AJL akan diadakan bila, di mana, and siapa yg terlibat. di uni sy malas ckit.. tv xde, surat khabar x baca... hehehe)

luckily smlm kwn saya, zaharah ibrahim posted on my FB wall, ajak me and another friend, nori, to watch AJL together. if not, i would not even rmb a thing about ajl... hehe (tiba2 beralih bahasa ke english sbb tak lancar sgt guna bm... idea x flow hari ni)

adding to embarrassment when Abg Aizat asked me "Mei mei sokong siapa?" when i went to his stall to get the famous Kota Grilled Burger (KGB). how to answer when you don't even know who are the finalists??? hehehehe. luckily i just answered coolly "sy x sokong penyanyi, sokong lagu jeee". thank god i din blurt out AIZAT when he asked that question... cos lately i've been listening to his songs alot... =)

anyway, just to share with all readers... here are the finalists of AJL 25

• Hanyut – Audi Mok/Faizal Tahir/Faizal Tahir
• Kebahagiaan Dalam Perpisahan – Edry Abdul Halim/Edry Abdul Halim/Shahir AF8
• Noktah Cinta – Ajai/Sheikh Qalam/Hafiz AF7
• Drama King – Taja/Teja/Meet Uncle Hussain
• Ku Ada Kamu – Edry Abdul Halim/Edry Abdul Halim/Adira AF8
• Cinta Sempurna – Yuna
• Pelita – Loque/Loque/A.P.I
• Berlari – Shazzy Ishak/Tomok
• Sofea Jane – Iswandy/Sham/Black Mentor
• Mencari Konklusi – Noh/Noh/Hujan
• Selamat Malam – Audi Mok/Faizal Tahir
• Ekstravaganza – Sam/Bunkface
• Jahat – Edry Abdul Halim/Edry Abdul Halim/Stacy
• Tolong Ingatkan Aku – Ana Raffali

If you are free this sunday at night, just tune in to TV3... support local music industries!!! (all of a sudden)

though Aizat not one of the finalists, but proud to tell you that he won the AJL last year... with his song PERGI OST of Talentime by Yasmin Ahmad (my favourite local director cos her movies all involves multi-racial issues... and her heart-warming advertisements, i.e Petronas adv that will surely make your eyes wet each festive seasons) 

Listen to Aizat's PERGI, and stay tune to AJL this Sunday!!! =)
  

Sahabat

Kata-kata guru BM saya sewaktu saya di Tingkatan 3 masih lagi saya ingat sampai hari ini : kawan dan sahabat adalah 2 benda yang berbeza... kedua-duanya membawa maksud yang berlainan. 

Apakah bezanya?

Kawan akan meninggalkan kita suatu hari nanti... dia akan mengkhianati kita, menyakiti kita... tapi sahabat itu lebih indah daripada kawan... seseorang sahabat akan menemani kamu sampai bila-bila, menyokong kamu sepenuhnya apabila kamu merasakan tiada orang yang menyokongmu...

friends are people who walk in to you when the world walks out from you...

no matter what happen, even if the whole world turns its back towards you, i will still be beside you and never turn my back towards you...

friend is someone who makes you smile when you cry, and make you laugh when you smile -Mei Kin-

Maka, lagu di bawah ini saya tujukan khas buat semua teman saya... yang tidak pernah meninggalkan saya terkapai-kapai seorang diri... yang sentiasa mengambil berat tentang diriku ini (siapalah saya untuk kamu semua habiskan masa kamu untuk mendengar luahan hati/masalah saya) dan yang sentiasa merindui diriku dan memaafkan segala kelemahan dan kesalahan ku yang tidak sempurna ini...

TEMAN 

(The Lion Story featuring Zahidah)

Download HERE 

Pertama Kali Kita Berjumpa

Tidak Kepastiannya Ternyata

Diriku Dipenuhi Soalan

Ku Tiada Teman

Aku Terlihat Insan Yang Keliru

Air Yang Deras Mencermin Wajahku

Engkau Menjelma Memberi Harapan

Menghulur Tangan

Sempena Hari Mulia Ini

Aku Tersenyum Lalu Mengimbasi Kembali

Semua Yang Kerap Kita Mengadukan

Kini Jadi Bahan Rindu Yang Ku Simpan

Detik Masa Kini Kedengaran

Aku Mengucap Selamat Jalan

Kepada Teman Yang Sering Menghibur Dengan Gurauan  

Bagaikan Anak Yang Baru Dilahir

Titisan Mata Pun Mula Mengalir

Di Simpang Jalan Kita Menyebut Kata Terakhir

Whoaaa.....Hoaaaa...

Sempena Hari Mulia Ini

Aku Tersenyum Lalu Mengimbasi Kembali

Semua Yang Kerap Kita Mengadukan

Kini Jadi Bahan Rindu Yang Ku Simpan

Ku Hargai Semua Yang Terjadi

Memang Nyata Dirimu Takkan Ada Pengganti

Semoga Kita Dapat  Bertemu Semula

Kerna Aku Yakin Engkau kan Sentiasa

Di Hatikuuuu

(Music Bridge)

Sempena Hari Mulia Ini

Aku Tersenyum Lalu Mengimbasi Kembali

Semua Yang Kerap Kita Mengadukan

Kini Jadi Bahan Rindu Yang Ku Simpan

Ku Hargai Semua Yang Terjadi

Memang Nyata Dirimu Takkan Ada Pengganti

Semoga Kita Dapat  Bertemu Semula

Kerna Aku Yakin Engkau kan Sentiasa

Di Hatikuuu

 

Saya jatuh cinta pada lagu ini apabila 1st time saya dengar lagu ni... semoga kamu semua turut menyukai lagu ini. ^^