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try visiting this link... cos this post is about how i feel after looking at the pictures...

1Malaysia photography contest organised by Taylors University College... theme SATU... i browsed through and there are 5xx photos inside...

Honestly, those photos need improvements...

i dun feel this bad if the photo is BAD and the caption that come with it is BAD as well

but the problem now is that... the photo is BAD, cincai-ly taken but with EXCELLENT captions... captions which makes me say "whoa! meaningful! agree! great! nice one!"

OR!!!! the photos make me gasping "fuiyohhh~~~" but the captions... "haihzzzzz"

that's not all... there are some photos with clearly ALL malays or ALL chinese and they put the theme "1Malaysia" and the caption "we represent 1Malaysia"

that's clear clear CLEAR people who don't understand 1Malaysia!

1Malaysia, for me, means diversity in one (malays chinese indians kadazans dusuns ibans melanaus etc in one country, malaysia) and not one in one (one race in one country). 

look at those pictures and you'll understand why i am so pissed off...

         

I AM BACK AT UNIMAS~~~~

haiya... stupid me loorrrr... see many friends plan to take up intersession (or short sem/third sem) i also semangat berkobar-kobar want take up... mana tau 5 minutes course registration open, already full all subjects... i get to register one also consider lucky lo. but also consider stupid cos ONE subject, TWO credit hour... also want go back take. waste time betul.... itulah meikin... only know follow friends...

at last what happened? all friends gave up on taking intersession... and they are so LUCKY that they haven't bought air tickets!!! and this stupid meikin already bought her tickets, have to go back lo... reli *stupid* (hit her own head)

many plans in her head also cannot be realised cos of this... plans like lepak at tasik every evening lo.... HAIHZ.... LOSER... =( giving up her TWO-month-long holiday... and all her GREAT plans during the holiday... =(((( FEEL WANT CRY ARRR~~~~ LOL =D

initially planned want do MANY things during this holiday de lor... include :

a) go back KB visit my dear students and teachers

b) go Penang

c) go Melaka

d) Langkawi

e) Redang

f) beaches

g) hills

h) relax

i) relax

j) relax

k) relax

in short is after relax still is relax... but stupid me go take intersession just cos of that stupid ONE subject and TWO credit hours... =.=''' (langgar dinding)

well well welllll... passed liao means passed liao... taking means taking, can't change any fact though heart still feel very pain... =(

what makes my heart more pain is the fact that

a)  i miss my mommy

b) i miss my sis

c) i miss my home/family

d) i miss the food at home

e) i miss my friendsssssss.... **seriously seriously miss them... like want to hug them till their bones breaks...**

f) i felt ignored by *someone*

mmm.... IGNORED is not a good feeling you know... when you chat with someone online but that person did not reply your messages, instead they replied OTHERS' messages... when that person called OTHER people instead of you to pass something to YOU

well... eh, obviously i am BIG enough to be noticed, i did not eat GLASS when growing up, and i am right in FRONT of you k... =S 

HENCE, sifu meikin concluded that such people is best left IGNORED cos at least when he/she is ignored, he/she will call you when he/she needs you, instead of you ASKING them whether they need any help

ALRIGHT! ignore them! =) 

 

don't know since when he had become so important in my life... confused... too many things in my mind that i don't have answers... i need peace... i need calmity... i need serenity....

i was already very sad today because the intersession that i planned to take has all been taken... even those that i do not want to talk also had been taken... all subjects full...

then during lunch today... i heard something... and that something is the thing that make me so confused with my own feelings, make me so sad, make me have feelings that i cant even describe with words...

"saya dah tak larat dah dengan chemistry... next sem nak tukar course"

why this sentence hit me like sword... giving an undescribable feelings? 

the feeling that i am gonna lose a fren... i am gona lose someone very close to me...

and i let my imagination wanders...

next sem... i will see him with new coursemates...

next sem... how many times we can meet again?

and when we meet each other, i will become like one of his other frens now... just a hi and smile... then go...

must all my friendships turn that way?

or should i be grateful that this time, it didn't turn ugly.. didn't end up like strangers who don't know each other... just like what happened to me with the previous 2 guy frens...

maybe like what i said before... the meikin theory which never once fail...

meikin's theory said that... meikin can't be close to any guys... once close, things sure will turn ugly... such as quarrel... and at last sure turn out to be total strangers...

and these are not theories without proves... already proven twice...

ya... maybe meikin can't really be friends with guys... sure something will happen... she have no fate with any guys... maybe she should be lesbian instead?

haha.... very funny, meikin...

haihz... let me let go of a BIG sigh... please...

 HAIHZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

god... please... let him stay by my side.... be my closest fren... just let thing freeze at this second... please....