ALL About Me (Kin Kin)

A - AVAILABLE : I am available on any days as long as NOT during my exams!!! ^^

B - BIRTHDAY : 26th April... sweet sweet day! hehehe

C- CRUSHING ON : ANTS!!! pity d ants, always kena crushed by me... next time crush ice lah. can make iced blended somemore... NYUMMY~ hehe

D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD : Amilase Enzyme *gulp*

E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO : sister and mommy!!! <3

F - FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT : Separuh Jiwaku Pergi - Anang

H - HOMETOWN : Kepong, KL

I - IN LOVE WITH : EVERYONE!!! <3 <3

J - JUGGLE : time!!! hehe

K - KILLED SOMEONE : OF COURSE!!! always happens in my dreams... huhuhu

L - LONGEST CAR RIDE : Sibu-Bintulu/Bintulu-Miri

M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR : As long as MILK and SHAKEN

N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS : 3. LOVELY! =)

O - ONE WISH : happy Happy HAppy HAPpy HAPPy & HAPPY!!!!

P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST :  checked back my phone only realize very long din call anyone alr.. hehehe

R- REASON TO SMILE : HAPPY!!! and to make myself & ppl around me happy! (n.n)

S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD : Belajarlah Untuk Cinta - Anang

T - TIME YOU WOKE UP :10am

U - UNDERWEAR COLOR : ooopsss!!! hehehe

V - VEGETABLE : ANY vege as long as not BITTER!!! (but i eat bitter guard okieee)

W - WORST HABIT : behaving like a boy, very boyish, as if no need to marry in the future! muahahaha

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD MOST RECENTLY : before i enter uni! *proud*

Y - YOYOS ARE : my results! (like yoyos.. hehe)

Z - ZODIAC SIGN : Taurus : Stubborn. Sensitive.

RANDOM QUESTIONS ABOUT YOU

Your favorite number/s : 3. cos i'm the third child. but 3 is DEFINITELY not my lucky number. used to pick the number 3 as my lucky number but always end up unlucky. hehe

What color do you wear most : PINK! till my friends thought i am wearing the same shirts. hehehe

Least favorite color : erm.. dull dull colours.. not bright, make ppl moody... =(

What are you listening to : Separuh Jiwaku Pergi. AGAIN!!!

Are you happy with your life right now : Not happy also MUST happy!!! cos it's MY life, i have to choose to go through it happily or sadly. so better choose HAPPY everyday! heheeh

What is your favorite class in school : BIOLOGY!!! (i LOVE bio, though not very good in it >.<)

Who is/are your best friend/s : too manyyyyyyyy

Are you outgoing : depends on who i am with

Favorite pair of shoes : belum jumpa kasut tat i love very much yetttt

Can you dance?: don't think sooo~

Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth : if a cherry enters my mouth, i'll eat it TOGETHER with its stem! hehehe. simply love cherry! ^^

Can you whistle : errrrrr.... using a whistle? hehe

Cross your eyes : NO! (i am so not talented. lol)

Walk with your toes curled : never tried before.. why must i walk with my toes curled when i have toes? *blur*

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...

Do you believe in life in other planets : perhaps not human

Do you believe in miracles : wish i can believe! =)

Do you believe in magic : YES!! Harry Potter! *mani mani ohmmmm~*

Love at first sight : YUP! definitely believe!

Do you believe in Santa : how to believe when my plan to celebrate x'mas each year cannot be fulfilled though i reeeeeaaaaallllyyy LOVE x'mas season... +.+

Do you know how to swim : noooooooooooooooooo~~~ *sad*

Do you like roller coasters : SURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! went to Sunway's... gonna try Genting's!!! when?? soon... (hopefully)

Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows : depends.... never tried before... maybe i'll vomit b4 i eat? hehehe

Have you ever been on a plane :  SURE lah!!!!

Have you ever asked someone out : my mom and my sis (MOST frequent)

Have you ever been to the ocean : Beach considered?

Have you ever painted your nails? : YUP!!!! and then fingers itchy, peel all off. wasted!!! hehehe

THE WHAT'S

What is the temperature outside? : just rained... COLD

What radio station do you listen to : once i enter a car, i'll just search the radio station till i find nice songs... to me i listen to songs, not stations... hehe

What was the last restaurant you ate at : Oten consider restaurant ma? hehe

What was the last thing you bought : burger + rice + teh o peng

What was the last thing on TV you watched : tooooooooooo long agooooooooooo (like very kasihan no tv)

THE WHO'S

Who was the last person you IM'd : MSN not working.. 

Who was the last person you took a picture of : AKRAM!!! yesterday at lakeview. hehe

Who was the last person you said I love you to : how long ago since i uttered that word? hmmm~ ho3

CRYING SECTION

Ever really cried your heart out : yes lorhhh

Ever cried yourself to sleep : cried till too tired and exhausted then sleep got la..

Ever cried on your friend's shoulder : YUP!!! *u know who u r*

Ever cried over the opposite sex : hehehehe. YESSSS. love it when someone is there to wipe off your tears!!! ^^

Do you cry when you get an injury : last time ba...

Do certain songs make you cry : Jay Chou's songs... always listen when i'm sad... and that HELPS me to cry, not MAKE me cry (got difference wan okkk)

HAPPY SECTION

Are you a happy person? : HOPEFULLY~

LOOK AT ME

What is your current hair color : Brownish Black (natural colour, don't jealous arrr)

CURRENTLY WEARING

What shirt are you wearing : Black shirt (mom bought for me deee)

Pants : jeans

Shoes  : not wearing shoes now... hohoho

Necklace : DROPPED my crystal pendant when shifting things back to college during uni's Raya festival.. ="""(

IN A GUY

Favorite eye color : natural can already

Short or long hair : PLEASE CUT YOUR HAIR SHORT!!! (cant stand guys with long hair)

Height : natural height? hahahaha

HAVE YOU EVER

Been to jail : in my dream... drived my sis's car and killed someone... nearly sent to jail.. phobia of driving eversince

Mooned someone : means?? *.*

Thought about suicide : any normal ppl will think abt it.. hehe

Laughed so hard you cried : DEFINITELY!!!

Cried in school : yeaaa... till my friends labelled me as someone who love to cry. ahahahaha

Thrown up in a store : maybe when i am still an innocent cute baby~

Wanted to be a model : NOPEEE

Seen a dead body : yea...... =""(

Been on drugs : medicine. avoid whenever i can

Gone skinny dipping : don't put bombastic words if you want me to answer!!!!

THIS OR THAT

Pepsi or Coke : 100+ & Revive (not answering)

McDonald's or Burger King : both acceptable... hehehe. but Oreo McFlurry always my priority! =)

Single or Group Dates: SINGLE

Chocolate or Vanilla: CAMPUR

Strawberries or Blueberries: ALL berries... hehe

Meat or Veggies: BOTH!!!

TV or Movie: Movie & TV >.<

Guitar or Drums: GUITAR! *prefer soft music... drums sounds so harsh to my ears*

Adidas or Nike: both also got wor... but pirated ba.. hehe

Chinese or Mexican: Korean

*releasing tension and awarding myself after KILLING my 1st Final Paper*

Tiada kena-mengena dengan yang hidup ataupun mati. =P



When last time he used to let me see his sms in his hp...

When last time there are no secrets between us, everything is so open... 

Whatever happened, he'll be excited to tell me, and i'll be excited to listen...

All his secrets he'll let me know...

But now... Even when he's looking at sms...

When he's replying to sms...

Everything becomes secret...

He'll turn away, his hp will be turned to another side...

And we said we don't know what happened...

When in fact, we both knows SOMETHING happened...

But we refused to admit what changes...

We refused to say what went wrong...

Cos he doesn't realize he's wrong...

And i am tak sampai hati tell him that he's wrong....

That what he did indirectly hurt me, with he knowing it or not...

 

And the gap between us grows bigger and bigger...

Further and further...

 

Till what's left between us are nothing more than WORK... 

FORMALITY...

And jokes which we create on purpose just to ease the tension between us...

 

Can everything return back to a few months ago?

 

NO...

    

Heart-Broken

i think no other words can describe my feelings better than this bolded word... when you love your friends so much, when whatever you do you never forget them... when you are the one who asked them out 1st...

they can say that they've forgotten me... they can say that i've never crossed their minds... but why do they quote something which is not true? 

"you said you want to study during the weekends, you asked us not to disturb your weekends"

when in fact, what i said was "do not disturb my sunday because i have paper on monday"

that makes me very very heartbroken. stop quoting something which is NOT true, something i've NEVER said before!!! if i said that before, i wouldn't had said i want to go out TONIGHT!!! and you yourself said "you wana go out? i also want to go out. but if you want me to go out, get me from medic faculty"

and in fact, i was the one who asked the other person who go out 1st. he rejected, saying he has no money. and suddenly he was going out. and i am not in the list... (i am NOT blaming him, cos he does not know that i am not following. in fact, he was the one who asked me to get ready to go out)

after EVERYTHING, what the 1st person did was "i ask them whether got empty place anot"

when everytime i go out with ppl he knows, he'll be the 1st in the list i asked. when everytime i go out he crossed my mind. but me? just someone to fill in empty spaces, that is also if AVAILABLE

and then when i was heartbroken, only did they asked the 3rd person to call and ask whether i want to go anot. in fact, there are already 5 ppl in their list. they're just asking to SHOW they SUDDENLY rmb abt me? just as manners? and what if i am going? are they going to kick one person out or are they going to squeeze 6 ppl in 1 kancil?

i've been hurt once... and i do not wish to be so stupid to be hurt twice...

i really thought i've found my best friends... i really thought i could share my things with you all... and i really thought you all are the ones who can make me happy and not cry again...

 

         

Between us, there is only work matters left...

i missed the times when i could... 

lie back to back with you, letting go all my tiredness when doing so...

manja with you... and forget everything that i am unhappy of...

laugh with you, as if there's no problems awaiting me...

feel sweet talking to you, without having any special feelings towards you...

complain anything to you, feeling that i am protected all the time...

lie on your shoulder, and not feel strange when doing so...

ride motorcycle with you, thinking that's the sweetest thing on earth i've ever done with a fren...

sleep at night, and wake up seeing your sms...

feel sad/down, and have you sending me sms caring about me...

be busy the whole day and at the end of the day, receive your sweet sms calling me "syg"

what's left now is just...

unreplied sms, making me think i'm disturbing your life...

unreplied fb chat, making me realize i am not important after all...

silence after silence... feeling weird looking at you as i do not know whether i can still act like i used to last time...

questions flooding my minds, asking what make us become like this...

all that you've sms-ed me before had just gone with the time... no longer significant... sometimes i wonder whether is it because as time passes, your other half become more significant than me and hence, replying my messages had become more and more difficult...

i tried hard to make out what make us become like this... but i still can't find a solid reason... all i know is that maybe it all started the day you did not reply to my sms...

i asked you the reason of you not replying... and you answered "Ntah.. malas lah nak reply"

after that, more and more sms goes unreplied... from normal sms regarding work to sms i sent, wishing you all the best in your exams...

we both had changed... and that's what makes things between us changes as well...

i wished i could turn back time.. seriously missed you... missed your sms... miss your smiles and laughter... missed your love and attention... and miss you calling me "syg"...

will i be able to hear it once again?

when what's left between us now are just formal/work-related matters...

i really really miss you...

          

over the last few days, i came across few incidents that make me smile and ponder for a few moments... incidents which remind me how important smile is to us...

a warm and sincere smile can let people forget your wrongs. 
my fren was giving his speech as a president the other day. he was so nervous in front of the timbalan naib canselor (TNC) that he stopped many times, unable to find suitable words to continue his speech. however, he admitted his mistakes with smiles, saying he was nervous. AH! that was what makes everyone smile, forget his mistakes and appreciate his talk... =)

when a dancer smile, he/she can influence others to smile also
yesterday was ambang merdeka for unimas. watched bayu (badan budaya unimas)'s performance. AWESOME! was so overwhelmed with their ability to dance, and more important, their smiles. to me, their smiles are just so sweeeeeeeetttt that they managed to make the other dancers to smile. not only other dancers, but audience as well... (like me). end up smiling while watching their performance... and because of that, i find their dance marvellous! ^^

when someone is sad, your smile can cheer them up
AH! encountered this so many times... i am really a good cryer (is there even such word???) i can cry for the slightest reason, or out of no reasons. but whenever i cry/sad/unhappy/angry, when i saw someone smile/laugh, i would automatic smile/laugh, unable to get angry/sad anymore. that's why people say "when someone is angry or when someone scolds you, just smile. that will cool them up" =>

hence, no matter where you are, just

SMILE =)

       

2 more days... and i'll be back to KayL....

went to Tabuan Jaya Ramadhan Bazar with few good frens of mine just now... instead of feeling excited going back, i was thinking of something else...

how many more chances boarding a plane do i have?
how long will it take before i have to say bye to unimas forever?
how many more days do i have before graduate?
when will the time come for me to leave sarawak?
what will happen then?
do i really have to leave?

from reluctant to come to sarawak... till reluctant to graduate from sarawak... 

how fat will the chances of meeting up be? pretty thin, i guess...

so it means i have to say goodbye to my frens as well during that time?

how am i going to face my frens like eysmie and rafik?

TEARY OCCASION...

how i wish time could just stop whenever i wish for it to stop...

typical dreaming fantasicing and over-imaginative mei kin... that's ME! =')
  
      

seriously, i love my life now... very much...

seeing my frens smile make me feel calm... everything seems so perfect... except for one...

i miss his sms..... =)