Gone...

"Siapalah kita untuk mengadili orang lain? itu tugas Tuhan!"

who are we to judge someone? human tend to judge people too easily.. by their deeds and by everything that we see... but at the end, does human has the right to judge someone? NO! only God has it...

the recent dismissal of one fren hit me real hard... i owed him too much... we were once very close... we walked together during LO Kursus Induksi, we had fun together and we always lepak together... when i'm free, i used to sms him and asked him to join me for a lepak session at tasik unimas...

BUT... ever since we both became JPKs, everything changes... i no longer paid attention to him... i began to notice aLL  his negatives and forgot all his positives.. i ignored him, i forgot about him... when he tried to talk to me, i walked away... between us are just "hi" and "bye"...

but he still treats me the same... when there are drinks, he took 2 and gave one of it to me... when there are lollipops, he told me about it and asked me to get them before other people finished them...

he cared so much for me and remember me for every single thing yet i did not care about him..

if only i cared more fro him..

if only i asked him what happened...

if only i talked to him...

if only i paid more attention to him...

if only i smsed him....

such tragic incident will not happen...

worst of all... i did not seem to cry like others... till the last day... till the day his body got on the flight... at 6.30pm... i finally let everything out... so tired and exhausted, full of regret...

why didnt i listen to my heart... why didt i sms him... why didnt i call him..

why did i ignore him...........