Light in Midst of Darkness

1st July 2011, Monday...

starting of new 2nd half of the year, many would say. saw quite a number of posts in facebook regarding how bad 1st half of the year was, all hoping for a better 2nd half... as for my case, well, typically Mei Kin... i forgot that 1st July is supposed to be a significant day marking beginning of 2nd half of the year, so i paid no special attention to it. hehehe


but something makes me feel i need to look at 1st July 2011 in another way...


Scene 1


a friday, as usual, 2 hours and 30 minutes lunch hour. we settled for McD at last (tak jadi pergi Alamanda again)


on the way, when we reached a traffic light junction, my friend suddenly exclaimed "wa, that kitten really ah... so dangerous lah cross roads like that"


initially i didnt even realize there's a kitten on road. when my friend commented like that, of course i try to look around and see where's d kitten lo... saw a cute kitten hiding underneath cars which stopped at red light. we were busy discussing about what will happen when the light turned green...


then it happened...


no no no... not the kittens kena langgar... but is my friend... no no no... not he kena langgar also... is he opened his door, got out from the car, rushed towards d kitten, stopped incoming cars and took the kitten from underneath a car. then, he took the kitten with him and put it to a safe area, far away from the road.


this is not something u can see happening often... you can only see it happening when you are lucky enough... ^^


Scene 2


went to Fish Farm Thailand Seafood restaurant (at Ampang Lookout Point) for dinner... after that sit at hilltop (at this restaurant call Haven), enjoying a cup of Chocolate Oreo Chips Shake (name so long for what... =.=''') while looking at sceneries... top hill ma... hehehe


"Marry him... Marry him... Marry him..."


these words echoed from the table behind me. i turned and see yet another scene that you will not get to see everyday...


a man, down on both his knees, with a white rose... he was proposing to his gf, friends are busy recording/taking photos


heart felt an instant sweetness... though it is not me involved, but felt deeply sweetened... just like how i got deeply touched by words in one of my friend's blog, though those words are not for me...


when will i find someone who will do such things and say such things to me? =)


those 2 events make me feel : 2nd half of the year had just kicked off, GREATLY... ^^

Perfect Love Story

during my secondary school life, i had this one teacher... Miss Lim Soo Yee... she had never taught me before, but somehow i know her just like i know other teachers who taught me in school. even after graduating from f6, i still look for her whenever i go back to SMK Kepong Baru. 


one thing i know is that, she has a bf, working in taiwan. in a relationship for about 5 years (or is it 7 years i forgot). "when are you going to get married?" is the most common questions ppl ask her, besides "wah, how you and your bf maintain good relationships though so far apart?"


she, always with her branded sweet smile, answered "no choice la, not so fast going to get married... of course distance sometimes is a problem, but what to do..."


i've always loved her love story and salute her for her ability to love her bf so unconditionally... 


few months ago, i saw her uploaded a photo...

looks like she is going to get married... ^^


yesterday, i saw few friends of mine wishing her "CONGRATULATIONS" over Facebook... and a look into her page, i saw THIS...

under the album "Soo Yee's wedding"

SHE GOT MARRIED !

my heart is blooming with joy and happiness, just like a bed of flowers...

though it is not me who get married, but i feel the sweetness of her patience and sacrification all these while... she loved, and God rewarded her...

may her have a happy marriage life... ^^

wish i could have such a perfect love story as well... and sweet one... 

missing him right now... 

sometimes i just have to be thankful...

wonder why human hold so much grudges, complains so much when there's many things they can be thankful about. well, maybe not human in general, but is MEIKIN in particular...


i always complain about this and that in life, not knowing there are many things, be it small or big, that i can be soooooooo thankful about...


to list down a few...


loving mom and dad
- who gives me what i want, love me for 21 years already... and a place for me to hug and cry... should be thankful that i have a full-time mom, not a working mom... i can manja with her when i want, when i have problem just hug her and end up crying... still feeling as if i am still the small and young baby meikin...


loving sis and bro
- bro helped me in every tech-related-thing : iPhone, laptop, movies, songs etc... sis who fetched me during my industrial training, though she's very tired and sleepy... who rather sleep in living room so that i can sleep in her room...


loving friends
Aja & Ain
- who let me stay in their room in UPM though their room is fully loaded... who treats me so well and care for me so much


Nori
- who still sms me once a while, asking how am i doing... how's my broken heart etc


actually there's someone worth a special mention here... **ehem**


lately posted some quite emo statuses in fb... one day a fren fb chat with me... and he asked for my email, sending me a file... when i opened the fail, guess what is that?


it is him, singing one of my favourite song (my message tone) "Belaian Jiwa"


though that is not the sweetest voice i've ever heard, but the sincerity overcomes everything...


i asked him, why suddenly sing that song and record it down...


"cos i saw your sad posts... wanna cheer you up, and i noe you love this song..."


shouldn't i be grateful with what i have now, instead of complaining not having this and that? =)

Burden ?

1. tinggal rumah kakak di Nilai
- kakak kerja... terpaksa susahkan kakak n kawan kakak untuk hantar setiap hari... kakak habis kerja lewat... kena travel jauh... penat... jam lagi... dah banyak kali mengantuk... stress lagi... pastu nak jaga makan minum saya walaupun saya dah cukup dewasa tapi dia tak masih tak percaya saya boleh take care of myself


2. tinggal dengan kawan di UPM
- lagi lah!!!! satu bilik 6 orang... nak tinggal macam mana? tadi tengok kawan solat pun macam susah... sebab tempat terhad...


APA NAK DIBUAT?????? ='(

Pig vs Cow

i guess some readers will go "ewww... biar betul meikin ni... nk post pasal babi ke??"


if you feel you can't handle the word pig very well, leave this post. 


not once, not twice... but it comes across my mind quite a few times...


in Malaysia, you have
Malays CANNOT eat pork
Chinese NOT ALLOWED to eat mutton
Indians CANNOT eat mutton
p/s : mutton = cow's meat


before going further, let me explain... some chinese can eat mutton while some can't. actually, it depends on which dewa/dewi one put on their altar. there are so many, each "in-charge" of different aspects in life : some gives prosperity, some health, some studies, some ensure that you can have good & "dengar cakap" child etc etc... and even some chinese do not know the fact that *not all chinese cannot eat mutton*. only those who prayed & has GUAN YIN MAMA on the altar can't eat mutton. (*note : Guan Yin Mama is the dewi that some chinese pray to for "dengar cakap" child... normally small kids are taken to the tokong and di-anak angkat to Guan Yin Mama) as for MY case, i CAN eat mutton =)


though i've thought of this for quite some time, but it never really strikes me till one day.


so what is the problem with PIG and COW?


the story is like this...


during our last meeting for 1Malaysia program (for the main organizing committee), we were served chicken and mutton, among other dishes. while most of us were happily munching and enjoying "daging masak kicap" a famous way of cooking mutton, an Indian sat beside us. *Unimas student, the Indian here is Deva, FK 3rd Year. should not be a unheard name right? most of us know him


i look at his plate while i was eating (yala, i am that kind of person who will be busy looking right, left, front, back, everywhere and analyse everything around me whenever i am free, include eating time) of course, as an Indian, he did not take any mutton with him. then i start thinking...


"Chinese are not allowed to eat pork in front of their malays friends. maybe i am wrong, maybe chinese are ALLOWED to do that, but we did not do it so openly. what i mean here is we will not eat pork in front of our Malay friends, pork are even prohibited in hostel areas. even if we are allowed to eat them in front of our Malay friends, we also will feel segan & guilty lah..."


"BUT... why are we eating mutton in front of our Indian friends without feeling a bit of guilt? if think logically : indians arent allowed to eat mutton because they believed cow is sacred/mulia... some even said that cows are jelmaan of indians' god. *correct me if i am wrong, just writing what my indian friends told me* and imagine : we are eating their GOD and most sacred animal in front of them"


mmm... get what i was thinking?


how would you feel if you see someone eating your God's meat? or someone eating the most sacred thing in your religion?


i don't know, forgive me for my naive thoughts and irrelevant thinking... just something that come across my mind at that moment...


maybe it's time i stop eating mutton in front of my indian friends...


malaysia... respect each and every religion, and their beliefs... and our you will find that malaysia is indeed unique and beautiful ^^

Time to Blog...

had abandoned this blog for quite some time... =P


it's not that i have nothing to blog, just that i have no time to blog... (cheh... as if i'm that busy riet?)


let's start from the last day at unimas...


well... cried when i hugged nori before going to the airport... i am not sure whether am i REALLY that sad leaving unimas... or there's something else... what i noe is i left with a heavy heart... the longer i hug her, the more i cried... MALU~!!! thanks Abg Salihin for sending us to the airport... (he got his reward of a McD okay! hehe) just want to add here a bit, luckily i managed to see *HIM* before going back to KL... =)


thanks a lot to Abg Ezral for the lovely book (read it in the flight, but of course haven't finish reading lah. hehe) might be one of the reason why i suddenly cried that day... waaaaa... malu malu... hehe


rushed alot back in kl... this one week has been a "shifting" week for me :
Kuching --> Kuala Lumpur --> Nilai --> Kepong --> Nilai --> Cheras --> Nilai
phewwww~


LI is T-I-R-I-N-G!!!! not because you have too much thing to do, but because you have NOTHING to do. supervisor is busy with ITEX 2011 that she told me on the 1st day itself that i will be abandoned in this WHOLE week... =.='''


experience living in other people's house (great treatment and everything... but so segan living in other people's house!) and some accidents here and there... 


missing out friend's birthday bash, missing out the gathering, the fun, everything...


basicallly that's all in this week... (really summarized... getting more and more lazy to blog)


Adios~ have a pleasant day! ^^

PERSAHABATAN

i no longer know how to measure the value of a friendship


people always say that when someone has a special partner a.k.a bf/gf, he/she can no longer logically and fairly divides his/her time


it is very true, no matter how much you tried to deny it. i myself did it, and i experienced it as well


no one is wrong here. it is just that your mind doesnt think like your heart, and your actions doesnt match your heart/mind


yes, you might say that "no. i am VERY sure i will NOT leave my friends. Friends are ALWAYS my top priority." note the word ALWAYS. but read as "i will TRY to make friends my top priority


and i REPEAT. NO ONE is wrong here


having a special partner is a commitment. you are committed to a relationship. you need to do something in order for the relationship to stay that way or grow. when you have commitments, u tend to ignore other things. and i felt it.


maybe from the beginning i should be that close, shouldnt get THAT close... and shouldnt depends on other people to much


after all, i am the one living my life, no one is going to be by my side forever, no one i can depend on forever to be by my side all the time


i guess it's time to realize that everything is just a short-lived dreams, ending. 


**SLAPSS**


alright, time to get back to Environmental Chemistry notes


p/s : thanks to friends who are willing to be beside me, though not forever, but at least for now. for the time being, *you* will not see the "manja" and over-dependant mei kin anymore. it is time i learn to live and swallow everything myself, depends less on "you". thanks for being a good fren all these while. 


*sad and feels like crying*