PERSAHABATAN

i no longer know how to measure the value of a friendship


people always say that when someone has a special partner a.k.a bf/gf, he/she can no longer logically and fairly divides his/her time


it is very true, no matter how much you tried to deny it. i myself did it, and i experienced it as well


no one is wrong here. it is just that your mind doesnt think like your heart, and your actions doesnt match your heart/mind


yes, you might say that "no. i am VERY sure i will NOT leave my friends. Friends are ALWAYS my top priority." note the word ALWAYS. but read as "i will TRY to make friends my top priority


and i REPEAT. NO ONE is wrong here


having a special partner is a commitment. you are committed to a relationship. you need to do something in order for the relationship to stay that way or grow. when you have commitments, u tend to ignore other things. and i felt it.


maybe from the beginning i should be that close, shouldnt get THAT close... and shouldnt depends on other people to much


after all, i am the one living my life, no one is going to be by my side forever, no one i can depend on forever to be by my side all the time


i guess it's time to realize that everything is just a short-lived dreams, ending. 


**SLAPSS**


alright, time to get back to Environmental Chemistry notes


p/s : thanks to friends who are willing to be beside me, though not forever, but at least for now. for the time being, *you* will not see the "manja" and over-dependant mei kin anymore. it is time i learn to live and swallow everything myself, depends less on "you". thanks for being a good fren all these while. 


*sad and feels like crying*