Gone...

"Siapalah kita untuk mengadili orang lain? itu tugas Tuhan!"

who are we to judge someone? human tend to judge people too easily.. by their deeds and by everything that we see... but at the end, does human has the right to judge someone? NO! only God has it...

the recent dismissal of one fren hit me real hard... i owed him too much... we were once very close... we walked together during LO Kursus Induksi, we had fun together and we always lepak together... when i'm free, i used to sms him and asked him to join me for a lepak session at tasik unimas...

BUT... ever since we both became JPKs, everything changes... i no longer paid attention to him... i began to notice aLL  his negatives and forgot all his positives.. i ignored him, i forgot about him... when he tried to talk to me, i walked away... between us are just "hi" and "bye"...

but he still treats me the same... when there are drinks, he took 2 and gave one of it to me... when there are lollipops, he told me about it and asked me to get them before other people finished them...

he cared so much for me and remember me for every single thing yet i did not care about him..

if only i cared more fro him..

if only i asked him what happened...

if only i talked to him...

if only i paid more attention to him...

if only i smsed him....

such tragic incident will not happen...

worst of all... i did not seem to cry like others... till the last day... till the day his body got on the flight... at 6.30pm... i finally let everything out... so tired and exhausted, full of regret...

why didnt i listen to my heart... why didt i sms him... why didnt i call him..

why did i ignore him...........

Bye Bye - Mariah Carey

This is for my people's who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high, we will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my people's who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me alive
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying, "I miss you"
But when we talked too

All them grown full things separation brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way try not to cry
As time goes by

And soon as you reached a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm bragging next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me that I held so tight
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/m/mariah-carey-lyrics/bye-bye-lyrics.html]
I thought you were so strong that you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way try not to cry
As time goes by

And soon as you reached a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm bragging next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

This is for my people's who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high, we will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my people's who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye, bye

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way try not to cry
As time goes by

And soon as you reached a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm bragging next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

Perpisahan Ini - 1st Edition Aizat Amdan

Di sini bermulanya pertemuan yang terakhir
Kehilangan amat terasa di hati
Mungkinkah ini yang tertulis di tangan takdir
Ku terima perpisahan ini

Dulu kita satu jiwa satu impian
Susah dan senang kita bersama
Namun itu semua hanya sementara

Hanya lagu yang menjadi ingatan
Hanya lagu yang menjadi kenangan
Seandainya masa itu kembali semula
Ingin ku memiliki lebih dari itu

Mungkinkah ini yang tertulis di tangan takdir
Ku terima perpisahan ini

Perpisahan yang tak ku duga telah terjadi
Dirimu pergi biar ku sendiri

Dulu kita satu jiwa satu impian
Susah dan senang kita bersama
Namun itu semua hanya sementara

Hanya lagu yang menjadi ingatan
Hanya lagu yang menjadi kenangan
Seandainya masa itu kembali semula
Ingin ku memiliki lebih dari itu

Bodoh Dibutai Cinta...

bodohnya mei kin~!!!!

ni je yang mampu saya ungkapkan...

pernah tak menceritakan pasal perempuan lain di depan lelaki yang kamu suka? memberitahu lelaki tersebut betapa baiknya perempuan tersbut... dan memberi sokongan serta dorongan untuk lelaki tersbut terus menyukai perempuan itu... dan perempuan itu adalah kawan kamu sendiri...

bodohnya diri ini... sampai sanggup lukakan hati sendiri... mengatakan kebaikan perempuan lain... memuji-muji perempuan tersbut... walhal hati kian terluka...

semakin tengok, luka semakin parah, semakin sakit...

tolong lah jaga hati kamu, mei kin... sakit.......... =(

     

Bila Cinta Hadir...

bukan sekali dua saya jatuh cinta... juga bukan sekali dua saya rasa saya jatuh cinta... setiap kali, perasaan tu akan hilang selepas beberapa ketika... 

andai tahu perasaan itu akan hilang, kenapa harus jatuh cinta lagi? kenapa harus biarkan hati ini terus dan terus jatuh?

"Don't treat me so good, I am afraid I'll fall for you..."

jarak harus dikekalkan... kurangkan bergaul, kurangkan bercakap, kurangkan semua interaksi...

perlu kah sampai ke tahap itu?

yang saya pasti, itulah yang terbaik... itulah cara yang terbaik untuk melepaskannya dari hati ini, menghilangkan perasaan yang makin terasa, dan membebaskannya agar dia boleh mencari cinta sejatinya tanpa melukakan hati ini...

sukar untuk dilafazkan, tapi lagi sukar untuk menafikan...

saya mulai suka kamu...     

  

CINTA

cinta itu datang tanpa diundang... tidak dapat dihalang, dihentikan mahupun diabaikan...

meskipun kamu sedar hati orang itu bukanlah padamu, tetapi pada orang lain...

It's Time

too many things happening lately related to my posts in blog...

"saya post di blog saya untuk saya lihat, yang awak sibuk2 bacA tu apahal? dah baca nak marah pulak. ada saya suruh awak baca?

ooppsss... sorry for sounding so harsh. but THAT'S ME!

In order to prevent further unwanted quarrels, guess i have to privatise my blog (still thinking why must i privatise my own blog just to take care of other ppl's feelings)

only selected readers will be able to read my blog... if you want to read my blog, just give me ur email address (as a comment to this post or in fb or by whatever means)

MOOD SPOILT

*initially wanted to blog about my CNY de... HAIHZZZZZZ