Nervous!

Results day : 31st January 2012


Enjoy Day : 30th January 2012
was already in the car... chatting & laughing loudly with friends... on the way to sing k... when suddenly this friend called me...


"C is fail or not?"
"nope... C- only fail"
"results out alr"
"i thought tomorrow? before i came out i checked, nth also"
"i just checked, out alr"
"owh... ok..."


Mood Spoilt!
was so quiet in the car, friends were alarmed. all the way moody, worried... and then the same friend smsed again


"Z got what results? he seemed moody"


SMS-ed him but he fell sick, after seeing his results
and i become more nervous...


Pei Yin invited me over to her house for feast today
rejected cos worry of results


I'm VERY worried too!!!
but have to stay calm cos i know he needs me... and have to stay calm cos need to comfort that friend of mine...


GRANT me PASS...
not C-, D, E, F or ath that shows FAIL... pleaseeeee.... i promise i'll be a good girl next sem... really good girl... 


Practise telling my dad
if i fail... how to tell him i'll extend one sem... 


the stress is actually from my family, instead of from myself... ahh... =(

That's LIFE

- What is the legal age of self-decision making?
No legal age, unless your parents passed away


- House is always the best place to seek comfort
All of a sudden, it become like a war zone. you never know when the bomb will explode, you never know when your room door will be opened and another scolding will continue...


serenity...
passing my Organic Synthesis & Natural Product Chemistry would be the best consolation at this time...


or else...
i don't know how i could smile again...

Efforts

have you ever face this kind of situation? you know it is close to impossible, but yet, because you believed there is still something called HOPE, you tried and make an effort, trying to make it become possible...


at the end... nobody sees your effort.... nobody even care what you did and how hard you tried... what you got will be just a firm NO


and definitely, it lowered your spirit, makes you feel pointless to continue your effort...


GOD knows best... 

Prioritizing...

something happened at home last night, which makes me feel like running away from home and going back to Sarawak... (normally at the 4th day of CNY i would alr be back at UNIMAS cos sem break will be over at that time)


however, one thing i am sure after yesterday's incident...


NO NEED TO RUSH in LOVE MATTERS


22 years old with just a degree. and already thinking about future? thinking of marriage? STOP IT MEI KIN!


just live each day as it comes... cos we never know when we are going to die... why worry over things which we might not encounter in future? why suffer from that, why be sad with that? who knows we might not even be able to live up till that day...


just let time decides and we just live to the fullest.... =)

All Written in Your Star...

don't know what's wrong with me this year... for all these while i've NEVER went for tilik nasib or those kind of thing... and even if i go to temple, i'll just pray for blessings for my family and my studies... but this year, don't know what's wrong with me...


- prayed for my studies
- prayed for my love
- went tilik nasib (actually not tilik nasib la, just "kao qim")


haha. maybe because he's not here with me this time. cos he'll always be the one saying "haiya, don't waste time tilik nasib. cheat ppl wan. tilik alr if good den u won't work hard, if bad means you'll keep on sad there". and he always say "wei, you pray for yourself and your family can alr ah... pray for health, for studies, for blessings... no need waste time pray love or ask god bless us to be together... cos if fated den it's fated, no need pray wan. most important is urself & family ahh..."


this time, mayb cos i'm going with my friends... i decided to give a try at everything... all that have been forbidden by him, all i did...


and the results?


got a bad tilikan... saying that this year not a smooth year, work hard also hard to get good returns... and... "Jodoh anda belum sampai... All is written in the stars... if it is meant to be, it is... if not, don't force..."


no wonder he had always stopped me from doing all these... cos he knows me so well... know that i'll be unhappy and keep on thinking about it... paranoid... =P


just hope i could grad on time... please......

SMS what?

i wonder what me n him sms all the time... when in the end of the day, it is other people who knows more about what is happening to me, rather than him...


and when i want to tell him stories about happenings around me, it always got stuck somewhere... whether he's busy or i'm busy, ending up we said nothing, he knows nothing...


in fact... mr. star2 knows more about me... 


what's happening? =(

Let It Shine...

"No matter how much star on the sky, thre will one and only one star that will keep on shine on you"

"If one star is stop shining upon u, thre will be other star to watch over u. Open ur eye (heart) to watch the sky and then u will see again the star shine on u like the previous star always, it will watch over u, wishing u keep on smiling, do the best in life coz the star doing the best to shine on u"

messages received from one person last night... bukan bintang saya yang saya cerita aritu... tapi org lain.... 

walaupun english dlm msg tu agak messy, but if u read it twice u'll understand... or at least it is enuf i understand.. ^^

*tiba2 mcm terlebih bintang pulak.... =P