Family or Enemy?

mood was quite good initially, taking into account that "he" sms-ed me yesterday, and my best friend told me that he liked me (lol)


mood changed once something happened...


was waiting for my experiment to run (need to wait for 15 minutes). so i went over to my friend's work place and asked whether is there anything she wants me to help her with (pity them, next thursday have to do presentation alr, but their supervisor like dun care about them at all)


she asked me to help her wash some apparatus, then asked me to dry it up at the lab above, and sambil itu help her weigh some samples (since our weighing balance rosak)


while weighing, a staff came over and asked


- you are under who?
- who ask you to use the weighing balance here?
- who gave you the permission?
- did you tell your supervisor?
- did you ask my boss? (my friend;s supervisor)


bombarded with questions that i am unable to answer, what i did was just smile and walked away...


i just dno why it hurts me so much to hear those things. mayb because of his "warning", "stern", "serious" tone... and at the same time, i was thinking "why can't i use the instruments in the lab since they all belong to the same company, MPOB? i am just a student, their politics is their problems. their misunderstandings, their past, are all theirs. why must they drag innocent students like me into such situation?"


p/s : my supervisor's office is at the lab downstairs, and this lab upstairs belongs to my friend's supervisor. both these supervisors are "enemies", have some misunderstandings that i also dont know is what. so they divide very clearly which is who's etc..


and so, because of this, students have to bear the consequences... of not being able to enjoy those new apparatus upstairs..


sometimes, it is better to work in a small company, but has warmth like family; rather than work in a big company but as enemies...


- "don like dat mei mei.. 2morrow i bring u ''sat keh mah'' n other very very sweet sweet stuff 4 u ok? =)"
seeing my fren saying this, i suddenly remembered one friend... a friend who gave me sweets when i am down/sad/no mood... someone who wished that with sweet things, hopefully my mood will get better... someone who brought sweets all the way back from Genting, someone who quietly put a packet of sweets underneath my desk in school when i was depressed... someone.. a friend i had lost... =')

Little Act

went to Station 1 cafe with sis, her bf and xiao tian (a gal from china working at the same palce as my sis)


reached there. got down from car. suddenly a woman (i think around 40 years old) called "miss... miss..."


holding my hands, she said she was there to look for a relative who had cheated her money. but the relative ran off, shifted. so she has no money to board a taxi back to her home.


she said she needed rm10... i gave her that... and her eyes were teary...


"only god can repay you all for what you all did... thank you..."


and she's a malay...


the main thing does not lie on her race or ethnic, but lies on the fact that despite being from different background, when you helped someone, ur heart feels light instantly... 


help someone, and feel the difference ^^

This is not L.O.V.E

a friendship which blossoms into relationship... that is LOVE, isn't it?

"A relationship build without the foundation of a friendship is just like a castle build on sand"

how can it proceeds further to a relationship if the friendship is working backwards? (read : it does not get closer, but it gets further and further, feels more and more awkward)

then this isn't L.O.V.E, right?

Light in Midst of Darkness

1st July 2011, Monday...

starting of new 2nd half of the year, many would say. saw quite a number of posts in facebook regarding how bad 1st half of the year was, all hoping for a better 2nd half... as for my case, well, typically Mei Kin... i forgot that 1st July is supposed to be a significant day marking beginning of 2nd half of the year, so i paid no special attention to it. hehehe


but something makes me feel i need to look at 1st July 2011 in another way...


Scene 1


a friday, as usual, 2 hours and 30 minutes lunch hour. we settled for McD at last (tak jadi pergi Alamanda again)


on the way, when we reached a traffic light junction, my friend suddenly exclaimed "wa, that kitten really ah... so dangerous lah cross roads like that"


initially i didnt even realize there's a kitten on road. when my friend commented like that, of course i try to look around and see where's d kitten lo... saw a cute kitten hiding underneath cars which stopped at red light. we were busy discussing about what will happen when the light turned green...


then it happened...


no no no... not the kittens kena langgar... but is my friend... no no no... not he kena langgar also... is he opened his door, got out from the car, rushed towards d kitten, stopped incoming cars and took the kitten from underneath a car. then, he took the kitten with him and put it to a safe area, far away from the road.


this is not something u can see happening often... you can only see it happening when you are lucky enough... ^^


Scene 2


went to Fish Farm Thailand Seafood restaurant (at Ampang Lookout Point) for dinner... after that sit at hilltop (at this restaurant call Haven), enjoying a cup of Chocolate Oreo Chips Shake (name so long for what... =.=''') while looking at sceneries... top hill ma... hehehe


"Marry him... Marry him... Marry him..."


these words echoed from the table behind me. i turned and see yet another scene that you will not get to see everyday...


a man, down on both his knees, with a white rose... he was proposing to his gf, friends are busy recording/taking photos


heart felt an instant sweetness... though it is not me involved, but felt deeply sweetened... just like how i got deeply touched by words in one of my friend's blog, though those words are not for me...


when will i find someone who will do such things and say such things to me? =)


those 2 events make me feel : 2nd half of the year had just kicked off, GREATLY... ^^

Perfect Love Story

during my secondary school life, i had this one teacher... Miss Lim Soo Yee... she had never taught me before, but somehow i know her just like i know other teachers who taught me in school. even after graduating from f6, i still look for her whenever i go back to SMK Kepong Baru. 


one thing i know is that, she has a bf, working in taiwan. in a relationship for about 5 years (or is it 7 years i forgot). "when are you going to get married?" is the most common questions ppl ask her, besides "wah, how you and your bf maintain good relationships though so far apart?"


she, always with her branded sweet smile, answered "no choice la, not so fast going to get married... of course distance sometimes is a problem, but what to do..."


i've always loved her love story and salute her for her ability to love her bf so unconditionally... 


few months ago, i saw her uploaded a photo...

looks like she is going to get married... ^^


yesterday, i saw few friends of mine wishing her "CONGRATULATIONS" over Facebook... and a look into her page, i saw THIS...

under the album "Soo Yee's wedding"

SHE GOT MARRIED !

my heart is blooming with joy and happiness, just like a bed of flowers...

though it is not me who get married, but i feel the sweetness of her patience and sacrification all these while... she loved, and God rewarded her...

may her have a happy marriage life... ^^

wish i could have such a perfect love story as well... and sweet one... 

missing him right now... 

sometimes i just have to be thankful...

wonder why human hold so much grudges, complains so much when there's many things they can be thankful about. well, maybe not human in general, but is MEIKIN in particular...


i always complain about this and that in life, not knowing there are many things, be it small or big, that i can be soooooooo thankful about...


to list down a few...


loving mom and dad
- who gives me what i want, love me for 21 years already... and a place for me to hug and cry... should be thankful that i have a full-time mom, not a working mom... i can manja with her when i want, when i have problem just hug her and end up crying... still feeling as if i am still the small and young baby meikin...


loving sis and bro
- bro helped me in every tech-related-thing : iPhone, laptop, movies, songs etc... sis who fetched me during my industrial training, though she's very tired and sleepy... who rather sleep in living room so that i can sleep in her room...


loving friends
Aja & Ain
- who let me stay in their room in UPM though their room is fully loaded... who treats me so well and care for me so much


Nori
- who still sms me once a while, asking how am i doing... how's my broken heart etc


actually there's someone worth a special mention here... **ehem**


lately posted some quite emo statuses in fb... one day a fren fb chat with me... and he asked for my email, sending me a file... when i opened the fail, guess what is that?


it is him, singing one of my favourite song (my message tone) "Belaian Jiwa"


though that is not the sweetest voice i've ever heard, but the sincerity overcomes everything...


i asked him, why suddenly sing that song and record it down...


"cos i saw your sad posts... wanna cheer you up, and i noe you love this song..."


shouldn't i be grateful with what i have now, instead of complaining not having this and that? =)

Burden ?

1. tinggal rumah kakak di Nilai
- kakak kerja... terpaksa susahkan kakak n kawan kakak untuk hantar setiap hari... kakak habis kerja lewat... kena travel jauh... penat... jam lagi... dah banyak kali mengantuk... stress lagi... pastu nak jaga makan minum saya walaupun saya dah cukup dewasa tapi dia tak masih tak percaya saya boleh take care of myself


2. tinggal dengan kawan di UPM
- lagi lah!!!! satu bilik 6 orang... nak tinggal macam mana? tadi tengok kawan solat pun macam susah... sebab tempat terhad...


APA NAK DIBUAT?????? ='(