Reminder

when you are sad + mood-less + stress + tired + many things in your mind to think about, the last thing you hope will come to you is a reminder of your past.

i took a week or so to forget about my results. to get over the fact that i did badly (compare to previous semesters) but i did not really put the blame completely on myself. seriously... how could you expect students to score in exam when

1. there are 9 chapters, the lecturer taught just 6 chapters and ask you to read the rest of the chapters yourself, saying that they are easy

2. you don't understand how the lecturer come out with that answer in his slide, so you went and ask him about it. and he told you that he also don't know how to get the answer

3. worse of all, the questions that the lecturer did not managed to answer, come out in your final exam. not 1 question, not 2... but more than half of the paper

4. i got a B despite getting the highest score during mid term exam

i might sounds bad putting all the blames on the lecturer, but i am really unhappy with the results i got. another subject that makes my score drops, ORGANIC CHEMISTRY. a subject i dislike, and with my poor memory, i cannot MEMORIZE things, i have to UNDERSTAND things. can you make sense out of organic chemistry? for me, i can't. maybe due to my slow and not-creative brain.

these 2 subjects really dragged my pointer down down down.... you thought i am happy with that? with my achievements (that i think is not 100% my fault) ? must i show people around me how sad/unhappy/down am i? showing people how weak you are doesnt solve the problem, it only makes ppl around you worry! especially when there are some understanding friends who tried to console you!

and when a close friend asked you about your results, you told him honestly, at last what he did? use it in fb as publicity? what else can i say? *heartbroken*

boleh je dia tulis dan komen pasal keputusan peperiksaan saya yang teruk pada sem lepas. apa yang saya buat hanyalah memberi sokongan kepadanya untuk terus berusaha bagi menaikkan pointer dia!!! dan membaiki hidup dia!!! itu pun salah ke? itu pun nak kena sindir balik??? dan beritahu kepada seluruh dunia mei kin lepas join jpk results dia menurun merosot teruk etc etc

AT LEAST I DID NOT FAIL ANY OF MY SUBJECTS AND I KEEP MY POINTER ABOVE 3.00!!!!

perasaan sekarang : sakit hati. rasa mcm dikhianati kwn baik sendiri. bagitau results tapi dia gunakannya untuk attack kamu balik. pada waktu di mana kamu sedang mencari kegembiraan dan ketenangan, dia ungkit kembali kisah silam kamu. buka kembali buku sejarah lama yang dah lama kamu tutup. soalannya : perlu ke???

tolonglah berikan kekuatan kepada saya untuk tidak terus marah pada kawan saya ni.. beri lah saya kekuatan untuk memaafkan kata-kata serta perbuatannya selama ni.. *rasa macam nak nangis....*

patut kah saya marah atau menangis?

saya perlukan ketenangan dan kekuatan....

p/s : jangan risau... post ini ditulis ketika emosi saya tidak stabil... lepas stabil nanti ok lah saya... diri saya akan ok, dan kawan saya pun akan ok...
          

Rojak Campur Post

Many things that i want to post but cos all are short short storied with very little descriptions, i call this post ROJAK post... (mei kin so sayang Malaysia.. should give her an award for promoting Malaysian food in her blog post)

lately sejak mula sem dan kenal kwn2 baru (berkat hasil drpd tukar tiket penerbangan sebanyak RM180 semata-mata utk pergi ke sabah) boleh dikatakan tiap2 hari jalan keliling UNIMAS. boleh dikatakan sgt sihat lah. (tu sbb sem blom mula betul2, classes banyak yg blom start, assignments meetings tasks activities smua xde... tulah yg free sgt utk lepak2)

smlm pergi Fun Fair di luar UNIMAS.. kat Desa Ilmu... blh dikatakan impian sy selama ini tercapai jua... impian utk main permainan kat fun fair! akhirnya dpt jgk sy menjejak kaki ke dalam kapal lanun (last time pergi Sunway Lagoon nk main kapal lanun yang pusing 360 degrees tp kawan sy masa tu melarang, saying that it is very dangerous) turun je dari kapal lanun... rasa diri saya tua sgt dh... pinggang saya punyalah SAKIT!!! mungkin sbb x sempat nk tarik nafas dh kena jerit kot...

pastu cubalah plak burger KGB yang org smua cuba promote kat saya (dan yg sy promote kat org lain sednagkan masa tu sy blom try lagi... so bila promote & kwn tanya "sedap ke?" saya cuma leh ckp "ntah... x cuba lagi") punyalah sedap burger dia.. mengalahkan McD! hahaha. sbb sehari sblm MAP dec mula, kwn sy belanja daging prosperity burger McD. sy mmg klau makan burger x mkn daging punya burger, sbb rasa mcm daging dia lembut sgt. mcm berair/berlendir... eeeeee.... tp dh rasa kgb hari tu, daging dia tu sedap!!! dpt dikunyah!!! sukeeee!!! (luckily chicken habis hari tu, klau x, x sempat sy nk merasa daging burger yg sedap)

the day yg we all pergi fun fair, sy n nori cuba KGB ayam pulak... daging dia tu mmg tebal (spt yg diiklankan oleh encik salihin saat) wpun lbh sedap drpd McD chicken (mana2 chicken burger McD), tp masih x dpt menandingi KGB daging burger. means burger daging KGB > burger ayam KGB (siap bagi penilaian lagi.. heheh)

hari tu pergi hospital visit budak BRC yang appendix plak, nampak scene yg sgt menyayat hati & menyentuh perasaan... seorg datuk sdg sakit tenat.. ahli keluarga dia berdiri sebelah dia, lengkap berpakaian baju melayu (tanpa samping lah) cucu dia yg sorang lelaki ni plak baca yassin (rasanya yassin.. sbb pernah baca dr novel melayu yg ahli keluarga akn baca yassin utk yg tenat) rasa sedih lah plak.. ditambah ngan bunyi mesin pulse di sblh... aduishhh =(

hari yg sama jgk sy rasa diri sy ni dilanda kesedihan dan kekecewaan yang teramat sgt... smua ni akibat sms drpd seorg abg sy ni.. kiranya senior saya lah, tp sy panggil dia abg... kata-kata dia pada hari tu dirasakan begitu tajam dan menusuk trus ke hati.. sy terkejut dia blh ckp dgn nada mcm tu kat sy.. dia mcm x kesian ke kat sy? sbb dia mmg tau yg sy x mungkin dpt buat apa yg dia minta... tp dia mendesak. desakan dia buat sy sesak nafas, x blh fikir scr rasional.. akhirnya, titisan air peluh pun gugur... (peluh... bukan air mata.. sengaja.. hehe) kesedihan melampau... diakhiri dengan perasaan bersalah yg teramat sgt sebab buat abg sy ni marah... hu3... sorrry... =(

hari ni plak tgk AJL ngan kwn2... sedih kot Faizal Tahir tak menang... (sy pun tak tau kenapa sy suka faizal tahir.. mostly sbb pengaruh kawan lah... sbb rafik yg slalu nyanyi lagu faizal tahir & post dlm fb.. sbb aja yg letak lagu faizal tahir dlm blog dia.. buat sy pun ikut suka,.. hehe) anyway, best lah plak tgk ramai2...

pasal benda yg sedih plak... hari tu jumpa sorang adik junior sy menangis tepi tangga masa sy baru balik dari fun fair... sbb basah kuyup akibat hujan, so x dpt nk peluk dia.. sbnrnya hati sy tergerak nk peluk dia trus.. kesian tgk dia nangis & sedih.. tu lah.. sbb sy tgk dia ngan bf dia tu dari tak kenal jadi kenal.. sampai tahap sms hinggalah bersama akhirnya.. so tiba2 percintaan mrk dilanda masalah, sy ikut ssh hati.. sbb dua2 adik sy, sy tgk mcm mana cinta mrk berputik.. so rasa mcm sy plak yg sdg mengalami gelora perasaan.. =(

hari ni jln2 keliling unimas plak, jumpa ngan adik yg sorang lagi.. critalah pasal kisah cinta dia lagi,.. kesedihan.. sbb baru break up ngan gf dia... haihzzzzz.... =(

smlm plak jumpa sorang senior sy ni.. dia jawab phone call.. sampai tension2 muka dia... mimik muka ubah... dia sengaja pandang lantai spy kami x nampak mimik muka dia... pastu dari suara dia ckp dgr mcm sgt tension... siap kerut dahi lagi... for a second or two, i suspected he cried,.. how true is my assumption, only he can answer that... hmmm

if can, i reli wish everyone around me can be happy. seeing them sad makes me heart broken cos i feel as if i can do NOTHING to make them feel better...

*sorry today's post is VERY disorganized... sama seperti perasaan dalam hati saya yang bercampur baur.. macam tu jgk ia mempengaruhi blog saya... sorry entry ni tak terurus & mungkin kmu smua x dpt nk faham apa yg sdg sy crita... nvm, cos i just want to blurt out what i feel.. it's even better if no one undertsnads... =)

GOOD NIGHT... ^^
            

Anugerah Juara Lagu (AJL) 25

mungkin sebab biasanya musim AJL saya akan berada di rumah, so AJL kali ni saya macam terlupa lah plak... (kat rumah ada newspaper, ada tv, ada iklan... so mcm reminder automatic yang AJL akan diadakan bila, di mana, and siapa yg terlibat. di uni sy malas ckit.. tv xde, surat khabar x baca... hehehe)

luckily smlm kwn saya, zaharah ibrahim posted on my FB wall, ajak me and another friend, nori, to watch AJL together. if not, i would not even rmb a thing about ajl... hehe (tiba2 beralih bahasa ke english sbb tak lancar sgt guna bm... idea x flow hari ni)

adding to embarrassment when Abg Aizat asked me "Mei mei sokong siapa?" when i went to his stall to get the famous Kota Grilled Burger (KGB). how to answer when you don't even know who are the finalists??? hehehehe. luckily i just answered coolly "sy x sokong penyanyi, sokong lagu jeee". thank god i din blurt out AIZAT when he asked that question... cos lately i've been listening to his songs alot... =)

anyway, just to share with all readers... here are the finalists of AJL 25

• Hanyut – Audi Mok/Faizal Tahir/Faizal Tahir
• Kebahagiaan Dalam Perpisahan – Edry Abdul Halim/Edry Abdul Halim/Shahir AF8
• Noktah Cinta – Ajai/Sheikh Qalam/Hafiz AF7
• Drama King – Taja/Teja/Meet Uncle Hussain
• Ku Ada Kamu – Edry Abdul Halim/Edry Abdul Halim/Adira AF8
• Cinta Sempurna – Yuna
• Pelita – Loque/Loque/A.P.I
• Berlari – Shazzy Ishak/Tomok
• Sofea Jane – Iswandy/Sham/Black Mentor
• Mencari Konklusi – Noh/Noh/Hujan
• Selamat Malam – Audi Mok/Faizal Tahir
• Ekstravaganza – Sam/Bunkface
• Jahat – Edry Abdul Halim/Edry Abdul Halim/Stacy
• Tolong Ingatkan Aku – Ana Raffali

If you are free this sunday at night, just tune in to TV3... support local music industries!!! (all of a sudden)

though Aizat not one of the finalists, but proud to tell you that he won the AJL last year... with his song PERGI OST of Talentime by Yasmin Ahmad (my favourite local director cos her movies all involves multi-racial issues... and her heart-warming advertisements, i.e Petronas adv that will surely make your eyes wet each festive seasons) 

Listen to Aizat's PERGI, and stay tune to AJL this Sunday!!! =)
  

Sahabat

Kata-kata guru BM saya sewaktu saya di Tingkatan 3 masih lagi saya ingat sampai hari ini : kawan dan sahabat adalah 2 benda yang berbeza... kedua-duanya membawa maksud yang berlainan. 

Apakah bezanya?

Kawan akan meninggalkan kita suatu hari nanti... dia akan mengkhianati kita, menyakiti kita... tapi sahabat itu lebih indah daripada kawan... seseorang sahabat akan menemani kamu sampai bila-bila, menyokong kamu sepenuhnya apabila kamu merasakan tiada orang yang menyokongmu...

friends are people who walk in to you when the world walks out from you...

no matter what happen, even if the whole world turns its back towards you, i will still be beside you and never turn my back towards you...

friend is someone who makes you smile when you cry, and make you laugh when you smile -Mei Kin-

Maka, lagu di bawah ini saya tujukan khas buat semua teman saya... yang tidak pernah meninggalkan saya terkapai-kapai seorang diri... yang sentiasa mengambil berat tentang diriku ini (siapalah saya untuk kamu semua habiskan masa kamu untuk mendengar luahan hati/masalah saya) dan yang sentiasa merindui diriku dan memaafkan segala kelemahan dan kesalahan ku yang tidak sempurna ini...

TEMAN 

(The Lion Story featuring Zahidah)

Download HERE 

Pertama Kali Kita Berjumpa

Tidak Kepastiannya Ternyata

Diriku Dipenuhi Soalan

Ku Tiada Teman

Aku Terlihat Insan Yang Keliru

Air Yang Deras Mencermin Wajahku

Engkau Menjelma Memberi Harapan

Menghulur Tangan

Sempena Hari Mulia Ini

Aku Tersenyum Lalu Mengimbasi Kembali

Semua Yang Kerap Kita Mengadukan

Kini Jadi Bahan Rindu Yang Ku Simpan

Detik Masa Kini Kedengaran

Aku Mengucap Selamat Jalan

Kepada Teman Yang Sering Menghibur Dengan Gurauan  

Bagaikan Anak Yang Baru Dilahir

Titisan Mata Pun Mula Mengalir

Di Simpang Jalan Kita Menyebut Kata Terakhir

Whoaaa.....Hoaaaa...

Sempena Hari Mulia Ini

Aku Tersenyum Lalu Mengimbasi Kembali

Semua Yang Kerap Kita Mengadukan

Kini Jadi Bahan Rindu Yang Ku Simpan

Ku Hargai Semua Yang Terjadi

Memang Nyata Dirimu Takkan Ada Pengganti

Semoga Kita Dapat  Bertemu Semula

Kerna Aku Yakin Engkau kan Sentiasa

Di Hatikuuuu

(Music Bridge)

Sempena Hari Mulia Ini

Aku Tersenyum Lalu Mengimbasi Kembali

Semua Yang Kerap Kita Mengadukan

Kini Jadi Bahan Rindu Yang Ku Simpan

Ku Hargai Semua Yang Terjadi

Memang Nyata Dirimu Takkan Ada Pengganti

Semoga Kita Dapat  Bertemu Semula

Kerna Aku Yakin Engkau kan Sentiasa

Di Hatikuuu

 

Saya jatuh cinta pada lagu ini apabila 1st time saya dengar lagu ni... semoga kamu semua turut menyukai lagu ini. ^^

 

 

   

When You Have to Let Go...

Letting go of something you do not want to... how hard is it?

2 days is more than enough to build a strong bond with someone... in fact according to Chemistry (trying to apply what i studied though they have no relevance at all), a reactiong can occur in just few minutes time, which simply means a bond can be formed or broken in a few seconds... 

and tat was how a STRONG bond was created in just 2 days time... 

TRANSCOM... short form for Transportation & Communication unit (hopefully i am not wrong.. heheh). a unit full of fun, laughters, and LOVE. we were stationed at the airport and bus terminal to take students from these places to their respective colleges in UNIMAS (and also being a tour guide)

the 10 of us had went through many things together...
1. happiness of getting customers (students taking buses back to UNIMAS)
2. excitements when meeting international students
3. boredness of a half-day-wait and having not even a single "customer"
4. getting mosquitoes bites (love bites from mosquitoes) outside the airport
5. being treated with McD by Timbalan Naib Canselor
6. berporet (gossiping in Sarawak language)
7. being forgotten by the bus driver who was supposed to take us back to the airport from UNIMAS
8. joy of meeting new students, nervousness of being a 1st-time tour guide
9. bullying our KU (Ketua Unit)
10. being under hot sun and in cold airport environment
11. hungry cos we were always the forgotten ones... ppl forgot to send us meals! hehehe
12. and other things that i left out (it is alr 3.30am now on 1st Jan 2011, cannot expect me to lie wide awake and energetically after a one-week orientation)

and thanks to our sporting and kind-hearted KU, being in this TRANSCOM unit is of so MUCH fun!

a bit of our cute KU's biodata :

Name : Abang Aizat (FB name : Aixat Gomu Gomu)
Age : 2x years old
Course : Mechanical & Manufacturing Engineering
Origin : Pahang

Now, let us welcome *drum beats* our beloved KU!!!!      

when TNC treats McD

it is 4am in the morning of 1st january 2011.. i guess i will end my 1st post in 2011 here.. 

p/s : i have alot in my heart and mind but words just got stucked up in my head... =(

Happy New YEAR!!! ^^

 

     

Small Things...

sometimes, it is those small little deeds that make your day a sweet one...

the other day i was at the airport... Kuching International Airport, to be exact... my flight was supposed to be 9.35am and at 9.00am, i was still eating breakfast at McD. having mixed feeling about leaving Sarawak (part of me heavy-hearted to leave Sarawak, another half of me missed home so much), i forgot to take creamer for my coffee (McD breakfast set)

imagine you trying to drink the taste-less coffee when someone asked you "have you taken creamer? no right?"

next thing you know happening was 
1. packets of creamers on the table
2. that person even took the small spoon-thingy for the coffee
3. someone packing your coffee into the plastic bag, together with creamers, the small spoon and tissues

how frequent can you find such a caring guy? when normally it is girls who do such things...

i feel blessed having such fren with me... and i thank God for that...

McD yang dah tertumpah coffee... =P

 and to end this story, i finished up the coffee, without creamer (cos cold alr, creamer cant dissolve even if i put) and it still tasted sweet although without creamer & sugar... =)

is there still love in my heart?

i've overcome the emotional part, i've fight through the hardest time of it... so what's left?

sometimes i thought i've completely forgotten him, i've stopped thinking about him. but my brain tells me that's not the case, everytime i see him.

no way i could treat him just as a normal fren again. no wonder ppl say it is hard to stay as frens after break up.

just like any other girls... i, too, wish to have a loving, caring partner,.. someone who loves me and accept me for who i am and for everything that makes me MEI KIN.

and the sweetest thing of being in love... is not when you hug and kiss, but is when 2 hands are locked together, signifying that one is willing to hold another's hands till old, through hard times or bad times, no matter what happen in future...

  

whatever the outcome is... i did what i can, and i left everything else to God. if there's still chance for me to be in love again, God will surely open up my heart...

and if it's the opposite... then i wish never to fall in love with anyone again...

i wish i could experience the sweet feeling of being in love again... but sometimes things are not as easy as it seems to be... especially when you are traumatised and become phobia... just like me being afraid of deep water after nearly drowned once...

maybe someone can brainwash me? hehehe

LOVE... i wish i will meet you again someday... =)