Being MYSELF~!!! ^^

i got what i want... at last!


and that's my aim at the 1st place, competing for JPK...


not to get a post, but just to guide so that a leader will be born..


i did not aim for president, but i am for timbalan presiden 1, cos i know very well my task continuing JPK is not to overshadow juniors to lead, but to guide them to lead


some might say that i am just showing off to others cos i did not get president. whatever it is, i know what i am doing, i know what i did is right... i know i am doing the right thing...


and i am proud i am not overtaken by greed, that i am still able to hold on to my own will till the end, that i did not accept the offer to be president cause the evil side of me ask me to...


I AM PROUD OF MEIKIN! ^^

To Continue or not...

few months ago, i said NO...

few weeks ago, i said I ALSO DON'T KNOW...

few days ago, i said YES, I AM OUT FOR IT...

few hours ago, i said OK, I'M NOT GOING...

wondering what i am talking about? about Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Kolej (JPK).... gonna leave it soon... a family, after a year of busy-ness and tired-ness... after a year of class-skippings and quizzes-missing...


should i continue, or should i retire just like that? i love it too much to let go... to people who tell me they wanted to be a JPK, but when i ask "why do you want to be a JPK?" they answered "cos i want to get college"


but being a jpk without a gang of fren is no fun... 


being a jpk when final year project is here, is of no fun also...


what can i do... 

Release Tension

bila lagi nak blogging kalau bukan sekarang kan? line at college is REALLY bad, considering the high intake of students.


actually baru balik dari kuching. merayau pagi-pagi... ^^


starting of sem is REALLY bothering me. with Final Year Project (FYP), events, activities and LAZINESS


skipped 1st day of class, on Monday, due to laziness + tiredness from juniors' orientation week. HAIHZ... tot wanna get full attendance this sem! >.<


quite random, during orientation week cried when my college lost in cheers competition. this mei kin, sot sot wan! this also wanna cry...


honestly, that moment, on my mind were these things... "hopes from abg salihin, abg ezral, abg hisham... and all other seniors... those who cant join me during this orientation... i've promised them victories from my college, but i fail to do it..." mayb crying is the way i release all the mix feelings in my heart. cried really hard, but is a way to release bottled up feelings and stress too la... heheh. when i see abg salihin's replies, that made me cry more... lol


talking about crying, feel uneasy this whole week. motivation gone, mood gone. nothing that can make me start my engine to work hard.


after jaga stor just now, was playing songs and singing out loud in my room, tot it is a way to release stress...


1.00am... ammar smsed and asked whether wanna go out anot... straight away agreed... and called up a few other ppl... namely abg salihin, mathew & farid. off we went out! =P


thats y i love campus life. can go out whenever i want, whenever i feel stress. lol


lepak at waterfront... walked around, disturbing ppl dating... sat down and chat and laughed... 


next, went to Raja Ayam Bakar, had some really hot and spicy sambal...


then drift on road, driver : abg salihin.... the wind : soothing! ^^


me, driving back to college from bhep, forced by abg salihin... =.='''


these are those few little things that managed to make me happy and smile again. heart felt much lighter...


in fact, i felt as if i've cried WHOLE DAY NOW!!! =))


if i were a Sim, i'm now in excellent mood! ^^


alright, a random, short summary of what happened to me these few days. now, OFF to sleep with a huge SMILE on my face!


love everyone... =D

Something I Should Have Done...

a friend of mine posted something in FB yesterday...

"TENSION!!!! mati lebih baik! lebih baik mati daripada hidup!"

fret not, he's okay... chatted with him just now on FB... nevertheless, his statement caused me to worry so much, unable to sleep... and i start thinking back of the past...

someone said & did the same thing as this friend last time... and cause i ignored him, cause i care about other things more than him, cause i forget to press the button "SEND" to send out the sms to him asking him is he alright the moment we got a weird "goodbye" message from him... if only....

maybe he will still be here today... celebrating Raya with his loving family...

It's the heart that counts...

went out with my mom to buy something... came back home with one voice message


never received a voice msg before, so it took some time before i finally figured out how to "retrieve" the message... pai sehhhh~


it's actually the sender's voice, singing this...

"Di manakah pemandangan terindah di dunia

Puas ku cari setelah jauh melangkah

Hingga takdir menyuluh ke arah mu

Ku temu pemandangan itu terlakar di wajahmu"

actually i have no idea what's the name of the song till he told me... 

Jatuh by Adam 

(click to listen ^^)

Di manakah pemandangan terindah di dunia?
Puas ku cari setelah jauh melangkah
Hingga takdir menyuluh ke arah mu
Ku temu pemandangan itu terlakar di wajahmu

Dengan setiap renungan
Terpesona ku rasakan
Dengan setiap belaianmu hati makin tersentuh

Oh kasih, oh kasih
Ku berterima kasih
Padamu kerana menyempurnai hidupku

Dan sakit dah sungguh aku asyik terjatuh
Jatuh cinta dengan kamu

Dalam berjuta-jutaan lagu
Tiada satupun dapat menenteramkan kalbu
Melainkan bila kau menyebut
Ke telinga bahawa kau juga sayang padaku

Dengan setiap lafaz kata
Harapan makin menyinar
Untuk kita bersama membina hidup bahagia

Oh kasih, oh kasih
Ku berterima kasih
Padamu kerana menyempurnai hidupku
Dan sakit dah sungguh aku asyik terjatuh

Jatuh cinta dengan kamu
Ku rasa setuah-tuah manusia
Nikmati hidup dengan wanita yang ku cinta

Oh kasih, oh kasihKu berterima kasih
Padamu kerana menyempurnai hidupku
Dan sakit dah sungguh aku asyik terjatuh
Jatuh cinta dengan kamu

"那些年，我們一起追的女孩" You Are The Apple of My Eye

So randomly i came across this movie yesterday when a uni senior of mine post the Part 1 trailer of this movie on FB. i watched it, and got quickly attracted to the storyline. Watched Part 2 as well =)


What is so special about this movie?
it is based on a book written by a very famous chinese author, one of taiwan best-selling authors, 九把刀, also known as Giddens. not only that, it is also based on his OWN childhood experience of chasing girl during high school. (these reminds me of the Thailand movie : First Love, A Little Thing Called LOVE")


Meanwhile, In Taipei Film Festival “International New Talent Competition”, it won the Audience Choice Award...


i'm not good at promoting, but just want to share this little sweet love story with you all. too bad, it's not screening at Malaysia... =(


p/s : Giddens is one and only chinese author who makes me regret of not studying in chinese school, cos i am unable to read his novels now all because i don't know how to read mandarin characters... =)
* i've changed the playlist of my blog... the 1st song played is the theme song of this movie... nice & sweet, just like our childhood ^^

Everything is fine...

one of those last days of my LI (latihan industri), me n a few interns were chatting when suddenly this certain cruel fact hit me hard...

"we mite be close now, but once we leave here, there will be no more common topics between us, and the gap will start growing day by day till we no longer as close as now"

exactly! that's very true... that's a fact... don't agree?

in secondary skul, we have our best friends... we will talk about everything from guys to tuitions to the girl next class, but once we go on our own way in life, when we come out from gathering, we will be talking about different things : i'll be talking about my course, and she, her course.

that's what we call : GAP

sth we have to accept eventhough we dun like it... =)