over the last few days, i came across few incidents that make me smile and ponder for a few moments... incidents which remind me how important smile is to us...

a warm and sincere smile can let people forget your wrongs. 
my fren was giving his speech as a president the other day. he was so nervous in front of the timbalan naib canselor (TNC) that he stopped many times, unable to find suitable words to continue his speech. however, he admitted his mistakes with smiles, saying he was nervous. AH! that was what makes everyone smile, forget his mistakes and appreciate his talk... =)

when a dancer smile, he/she can influence others to smile also
yesterday was ambang merdeka for unimas. watched bayu (badan budaya unimas)'s performance. AWESOME! was so overwhelmed with their ability to dance, and more important, their smiles. to me, their smiles are just so sweeeeeeeetttt that they managed to make the other dancers to smile. not only other dancers, but audience as well... (like me). end up smiling while watching their performance... and because of that, i find their dance marvellous! ^^

when someone is sad, your smile can cheer them up
AH! encountered this so many times... i am really a good cryer (is there even such word???) i can cry for the slightest reason, or out of no reasons. but whenever i cry/sad/unhappy/angry, when i saw someone smile/laugh, i would automatic smile/laugh, unable to get angry/sad anymore. that's why people say "when someone is angry or when someone scolds you, just smile. that will cool them up" =>

hence, no matter where you are, just

SMILE =)

       

2 more days... and i'll be back to KayL....

went to Tabuan Jaya Ramadhan Bazar with few good frens of mine just now... instead of feeling excited going back, i was thinking of something else...

how many more chances boarding a plane do i have?
how long will it take before i have to say bye to unimas forever?
how many more days do i have before graduate?
when will the time come for me to leave sarawak?
what will happen then?
do i really have to leave?

from reluctant to come to sarawak... till reluctant to graduate from sarawak... 

how fat will the chances of meeting up be? pretty thin, i guess...

so it means i have to say goodbye to my frens as well during that time?

how am i going to face my frens like eysmie and rafik?

TEARY OCCASION...

how i wish time could just stop whenever i wish for it to stop...

typical dreaming fantasicing and over-imaginative mei kin... that's ME! =')
  
      

seriously, i love my life now... very much...

seeing my frens smile make me feel calm... everything seems so perfect... except for one...

i miss his sms..... =)
  

biasanya memang susah nak orang lain menghargai apa yang telah kita lakukan...

just saw loads of comment on a photo my fren tagged me in.. telling how bad are the Liaison Officers during Minggu Aluan Pelajar... how bad we organised things... how we did not respect them etc...

but who noticed when the juniors do not respect us? when their parents blamed us for not knowing where each blocks are? they do not know the hidden facts that some of us are from different college than the one we're on duty at. who noticed when the juniors do not listen to us? (thank god i havent encounter things like this at Cempaka College... all the juniors are quite ok)

thats human... often complain about thingst hey do not know and things that they have no experience at. they often thought that those things are as simple as what they seems to be. just like before i became an LO, i have no idea that we need to attend a week of training, need to know informations about this and that, which department to go when we encounter different prob etc...

it's not easy asking us to smile the whole day no matter what happen, rain or shine, hor or cold, happy or sad, scolded or praised... nevertheless, it trains us to be more patient... to be human with higher EQ i supposed? hehe

what's more important is we, the LOs, learnt many things from these... 

human do not magnify good things and say thank you... in fact, they normally exagerate small things and complain...
 

i thought i am strong enough emotionally... 

but i lose... when i am alone in room... when no one is around me... i lose to my own feelings...

i cried after posting this on facebook...

people say "i had many more things to say... i wish i had more time"
but mei kin says "some things are sweeter if left unsaid" >.^

i began missing you already, my fren...
 

siapalah yang sudi mendengar luahan hati dan perasaan saya... 

hari tu (rabu), lepas exam epp, saya dimaklumkan yang seorg kawan baik saya akan bertukar kursus;... kawan baik yang selama ini menemani saya ketika saya sedih... kawan baik yang sangat saya hargai... 

tapi, siapa lah saya padanya... hinggakan bertukar kursus pun tidak beritahu saya...

membuatkan saya terfikir... siapakah saya... sekadar coursemate? yang menemaninya ketika kawan-kawannya yang lain sibuk dengan urusan masing-masing? dan apabila sekarang dia sudah bertukar kursus, apakah pula status saya? tidak boleh dikatakan coursemate lagi.. jadi? strangers kah kita kelak?

siapalah saya ni... sekadar insan yang pass by hidupmu... tanpa meninggalkan kesan tapak kaki...

semoga kamu akan berjaya menjumpai coursemate yang mampu dijadikan kawan baik... curahkanlah segala apa yang ada dalam hatimu agar tidak terseksa... 
    

MAP finally ended... miss the 2 weeks (including induksi) i spent together with other LOs having fun and eating free... learnt alot in these 2 weeks and intend to join again next year! =)

knew many new frens too!!! jerry, d' fester, willie... love them all!!!

juniors are lovely as well! memories of practicing cheers together.. and during sukaneka... i'll keep those in my heart forever...

not forgotten those bitter ones... such as KK fainted incident... =( 

initially i was so reluctant to move to cempaka even for one week... however as time passes... i began to fell in love with cempaka and its juniors... i love everything about cempaka... the people, the staff, the surroundings, the rooms, the pathways... 

though i began to love cempaka, brc is still my home... i still have to go back to brc and live there... there's where my heart is supposed to be... like bella... though she began to love jacob, she has to know that her love is edward, not jacob... (twilight fever)

I LOVE YOU, CEMPAKA!!!! AUUUMMM~~~~

and when i went back to brc, i have a sudden feel of i doesnt belong to brc anymore... i dunno any of the juniors, the LOs... everything seems so weird and strange to me... i don't know what others are talking about anymore... things can reli change in one week's time, don't they? =)